relationships

Here's to hoping
for a one night stand
stuttering a line
About who I think I am


Sharing a secret
With a stranger
Dark and pure
Is it love
Or is it lust

Falling asleep
With a nobody
Just a mask
of a pretty face
Leading me to my doom
I whisper let me go
As you let me in
WAY TO FAR

You grab my hair
You reel me in
I CAN'T ESCAPE
I CAN'T ESCAPE

Here's to hoping
For lifetime stand
Stuttering I do's
its who I think I am

Standing next to you
So confident
I shake and shiver
So cowardly
and maybe im bitter
Resentful and mad
But that doesn't mean 
We have to be had

Until your life leaves you
(Ill be there)
Whether I like it or not
(Ill be there)
Whether you care or not
(Ill be there)
No matter the suffering

ILL BE THERE
UNTIL
THE LIFE
LEAVES
YOU
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note.
the entirety of this can be screamed and it still works.

Yr Smrk Rmnds Me Of The Time U Died.

I'm a quiet boy
In a ambulance
I'm a missing voice
I screamed my lungs out at ya

But I've got a heart
(I've got a heart)
its in my hands
and its on your grave 
how do you like that for a change


And the ghost of you
Never looked better
Than the disappointment
Marked by the face
I ripped the smile off your face
(SO SMIRK AGAIN)
against the wall
I took it all
Everything you ever had

And maybe I'm going to hell
But at least ill take you with me
Your the victim damn straight
Your the murderer
You made me take your life
(SO STOP SMIRKING)
In my face
I'm in your place
Following your footsteps

I'm a bad boy
In a ambulance
I'm a missing voice
I screamed my lungs out at ya

But I've got a heart
(I've got a heart)
its in my hands
and its on your grave
how do you like that for a change

This story began
When I met you
With a smirk
You got my attention
Wrapped up within a cold sweat
And this story ends
With my final salute to you
And all the shit
I put you through
this is my
final goodbye
I am so happy
I made you die


I'm a good boy
In a ambulance
I'm a missing voice
I screamed my lungs out at ya

But I've got a heart
(I've got a heart)
its in my hands
and its on your grave
how do you like that for a change 
how do you like that
I think I like that
I hope you like that
I hope you like you dead

Flatline.

I can walk the plank
Better than you
Sipping real drinks
Stronger than you
This is what I get
For letting you in


Tripping on words
Like heartfelt lungs
missing a beat
Before the flat line hits
Gotta get shocked
Gotta get shocked
Gotta get shocked
Gotta get shocked
Back to life
Please save me now
I'm fading (Fading)
FADING AWAY!

I can tie a rope
Tighter than you
I can fall down
Faster than you
And I don't think
I can get back up
Again

Tripping on words
Like heartfelt lungs
missing a beat
Before the flat line hits
Gotta get shocked
Gotta get shocked
Gotta get shocked
Gotta get shocked
Back to life
Please save me now
I'm fading (Fading)
FADING AWAY!

Until the day
I come to life
Ill stare hungrily
Into your eyes
I want you back
Inside my head
Where you belong
Not in my bed
With my shirt on
Wearing my disguise


Tripping on words
Like heartfelt lungs
missing a beat
Before the flat line hits
the flat line hits
THE FLAT LINE HITS!

Silver And Gold.

Golden eyes follow me
expecting me to be
Something great
But I can't stand the pressure

Golden lies follow me
Wherever I flea
I can't seen to escape them
And the pressure they relieve

But your stuck
In my head
Like a pop song
I want you out
But I can't seem to shake you
Out of my head
I don't want you
But secretly
I love the way you sound

Silver mirrors follow me
To show me who I am
And how ill never be
The number one you want of me
Will never come to be

Silver tongues follow me
trying to convince me to be
Someone more then me
Someone that I'm not

But your stuck
In my head
Like a pop song
I want you out 
But I can't seem to shake you
Out of my head
I don't want you
But secretly
I love the way you sound


Gold and silver
Like trial and error
Never seemed to fit with me
I'm more like a white
As close to nothing as can be

(GOLDEN EYES)
And I can't stop the pressure
(GOLDEN LIES)
But its the pressure they relieve
(SILVER MIRRORS)
And the number one you want of me
(SILVER TONGUES)
Is someone that I'm not
It will never come to be\

But your stuck in my head
like a pop song
And I don't want you out...

The Invisible Ones

I have so many games
But I don't have happiness
Its the way I am
when my shallow eyes zoom in

kick up your skirt
invisible girl
Momentary satisfaction
Is all i have
going for me
When the nights get lonely

I have so many friends
But I don't have happiness
Its the way I am
To always feel the way I should

strike a dying pose
invisible boy
and you'll feel like me
But let it be
Something different
Something not like me

I have so many faults
but I don't have feeling
its the way I am
Numb like a victim in a body bag

And if I ever feel
anything for anyone
Maybe ill talk my way to you
runaway crows mark my defeat
just let them lead the way

And happiness is overrated
When your falling behind in love
You can't make up what you truly feel
when you emerge from that lily pond
That lies between you and her
That lies between you and him
That lies between you and me

I have so many friends
But I can't find you
I'm sorry oh
I'm sorry ohh
For the invisible kids
Who can't seem to find their way home

Trapped

Staying in a run down loft
The air is cold the heat is off
Its been broken since the night
when I met you

You grabbed my arm
you looked at me
And whispered in my ear
"Please let me go"
"I don't want to be here"

Oh I wish you wouldn't cry
It makes everything
more difficult
I'd let you out
But I can't
I don't run this place
its out of my control

Staying in a run down loft
The shadows crawl the lights are off
They've been out since the night
after I found you

You shook my head
Stared in my eyes
You yelled at me
"please let me go"
"I don't want to be here"

Oh I wish you wouldn't cry
It makes everything
more difficult
I'd let you out
But I can't
I don't run this place
its out of my control

And there's the time
You broke down screaming
"PLEASE LET ME OUT"
"I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE"
You hated me
You wanted out
But I couldn't help you
I'm sorry you can blame me
ill just take the fall

Oh I wish you wouldn't cry
It makes everything
more difficult
I'd let you out
But I can't
I don't run this place
its out of my control

Seventeen

I'm seventeen
With a sore back
My bones ache
With the thought of waking up

My motivation is alive
But just barely
At least I have my passion
But even that is dying

Hey
I already know im screwed
I don't need to hear it from you
Just let me live my life
Its all I got going
for me

I'm seventeen
Without direction
I don't know where I'm going
But I like that

I've got some heartache
Holding me down
I can't seem to let go
yeah I know
I'm just a stupid kid

Hey
I already know im screwed
I don't need to hear it from you
Just let me live my life
Its all I got going
for me

I'm seventeen
without dreams
I've got no plans
no big rich schemes

I'm just a loser
But at least I haven't lost
The only game that matters
Its the one you think it is

Hey
I already know im screwed
I don't need to hear it from you
Just let me live my life
Its all I got going
for me

I'm seventeen
Wasting away
It makes me happy
Wasting time
I guess I'm what you'd call
A waste of space
A waste of life
But I'm only seventeen
I can correct this later

Hey
I already know im screwed
I don't need to hear it from you
Just let me live my life
Its all I got going
for me

Start A Clap

listen to the views
of the unheard
and you might hear
something new
something fresh

take the story
to the news stand
tell it first
before you see the red light
be your own green light

start a clap
at the moment
you've been waiting for
its the only chance you'll ever get
but, don't, halt
your life for it
cause sometimes
you gotta make it happen

listen to the views
of the liar politicians
and you might get confused
but taking your anger out like lit fuse
only serves to burn you out faster

take the story
write it out
make it yours
scream it out
let the world know
your, out, there

start a clap
at the moment
you've been waiting for
its the only chance you'll ever get
but, don't, halt
your life for it
cause sometimes
you gotta make it happen

start a clap
at the moment
you've been waiting for
its the only chance you'll ever get
but, don't, halt
your life for it

cause sometimes
you gotta make it happen
you gotta make it happen

Sun Bright

My life is a little bit like nihilism
I've given in-to the spectacle
Yeah my life doesn't have a point
Cause I'm never gonna be some one
Let alone somebody

there's a hurt in the back of my mind
It says don't try
just give up
there's no reason to be alive
when alive
always finds a new way
To be a lie


and I'm nostalgic for the darker days
When numbness existed as a crutch
Now life is a flight of depression
flying above and beyond
The nights where it was so common
To wake up in fright while hating life

My life is a little bit like nihilism
I've given in-to the spectacle
Yeah my life doesn't have a point
Cause I'm never gonna be some one
Let alone somebody

And the story of the year 
Is how we can hold on
to something so pointless
Like manic depression
When it bites you on the lip
You know you're hooked forever

Nihilism is my comfort zone
knowing nothing matters
Allows me to take solace in my failures
But there's a point says the existentialist
you make your own reason to go on
While you define who you really are
Now I've been defined by a razorblade
By tears and pills and little black notebooks
But one day
I think ill define myself
With a smile
With a light shining so bright
yeah ill define myself
With a smile
With a light shining so bright
just because I can
Not because I want to no
As chaos makes the world go 'round
And for once
I just want to be apart
of something more than I will ever be

My life is a little bit like nihilism
I've given in-to the spectacle
Yeah my life doesn't have a point
Cause I'm never gonna be some one
Let alone somebody
but someday
ill define myself
With a smile
With a light
shining so bright
Yeah ill define myself
With a smile
With a light
shining so bright
Shining so bright
So bright
let's define ourselves
With a smile and a light that shines brighter
than the brightest sun

Winter Run

I'm trying
Trying
To get a hold of you
My phone is dead
And the interweb is down
Goddamn it the winter sucks

I take a ride on my bike
5 miles to your house
Its freezing cold
but my car broke down
And all my friends suck
did you hear that?
Yeah you all fucking suck

My bike chain snapped
half way there
And I couldn't decide
If I should turn back or not
oh well I guess its time to run
I'm flipping tired
but the situations dire
I guess I'm just a good boyfriend

I'm trying
Yeah I'm Trying
To get a hold of you
My phone is dead
And the interweb is down
Goddamn it the winter sucks

A mile away
I trip and fall
On some black ice
Into a snow bank
Yeah my life sucks

I really need to get to you
So I get up
and bolt faster then the flash
Its fucking cold
but my heart is warming up
With the thought of you
I ignore the frost bite
On my left ear

I'm trying
Yeah I'm Trying
To get a hold of you
My phone is dead
And the interweb is down
Goddamn it the winter sucks

I'm at your house
I call your name
You look out the window
There's a smile on your face
I yell to you
I think we should break up
There's a tear in your eye
But your laughing now
Cause I'm the one that's dead

I'm trying
Yeah I'm Trying
To get a hold of you
My phone is dead
And the interweb is down
Goddamn it the winter sucks

That's what I get
For being a shitty boyfriend.

Carousel

I'm taking a break
From the younger days
Where everything
and anything
Was taken close to
my heart

use to be
A battlefield
With word grenades
and razor blade
always coming down
on me

But for now ill play
This Carousel game
Where everybody
And anybody
Goes everywhere
And no where
So I can keep my
Head on straight
And everything will be okay
I swear I will walk away
walk away, away from this
Gotta get away from this

I'm taking a start
To stop this ride
Its boring and unfruitful
Where am I without sorrow
on this Carousel ride
Where everybody
And anybody
Goes everywhere
And no where
So I can keep my
Head on straight
And everything will be okay
I swear I will walk away
Walk away, away from this
Gotta get away from this

Punching Bag

I don't understand
Why everyone comes to me
with their problems
Its not like I don't have my own

now don't get me wrong
i don't mind
Helping out a friend
But its four in the morning
And I just want to be left alone

Just because I have experience
Doesn't mean I can help
I'm not a saint with good advice
- spoken -
I mean come on look at me
I used to hurt myself

Well fuck that noise
I'm better now
Ill help you too
But let me say
What's in my mind
Cause I might tell you
What you don't
want to hear

now don't get me wrong
i don't mind
Helping out a friend
But its four in the morning
I just want to be left alone

Well maybe ill try to help
But I don't see why you'd ask me
Its not like I volunteered
well whatever I hope I can be of some use
As your verbal punching bag
But when its four in the morning
Leave me the fuck alone

Sleepless Nights

Stay up
later each night
can't sleep
My eyes hate me
With every passing hour
There's only so much
the sky can entertain

I try to find something new to do
In place of the sleep
Laid down before me
I start writing songs for you
But you don't care
You never cared much for me
And all the words I string together
Even if they're all for you

Wake up
later every day
Mid day
Its three o'clock
And I'm still in bed
What's wrong with me?
 I can't seem to stay healthy
my health is fading but so are you

you came and went and came again
But guess what fuck you
Stop messing with my life
I don't want to deal with you

But you don't care
You never cared much for me
And all the words I string together
Even if they're all about you

Wake up
(sleepless nights)
Can't sleep
(mind is racing)
Mid day
(sun is setting)
Stay up
(writing song)
Wake up
(sleepless nights)
Can't sleep
(mind is racing)
Mid day
(sun is setting)
Stay up all night
writing songs about you