05.21.1993

http://soundcloud.com/kevin-kelley/nights

There's a time of the night
When I just need a face
To look me in the eyes
To tell me I'm alright

There's a time of the night
That requires a walk down the street
To hide in your arms
To make me feel alright

Sadness comes in the night
(I know your afraid of the dark)
Sadness comes in the night
(I know your afraid of the dark)
I'm afraid of the night!

There's a time of the night
When I could use a light
To open up in the sky
To remind me of you

There's a time of the night
When I could use a friend
To keep by my side
To keep me alive

Sadness comes in the night
(I know your afraid of the dark)
Sadness goes in the day
(I know your afraid of the light)
I'm afraid of today!

There's a time of the day
When the sun comes out
To burn away the night
To burn away self hate

There's a time of the day
That's worse than the night
Worse than my sadness
Worse than my life

That's when I'm asleep!

Sadness comes in the day
(I know your afraid of the light)
Sadness goes in the night
(I know your afraid of the dark)
I'm afraid of tonight!

It might be hard to believe
What its like to be me
How could I be so sad
How could it be so bad

My answer would be
That I did it myself
Made myself so hurt
Made myself pathetic

I brought myself so down
I brought my life to a halt
I just wanted to stop
I just want it to stop!

..(crickets)..

Sadness comes in the night
Sadness goes in the day
(I know your afraid of it all)
Sadness comes in the day
Sadness goes in the night
(I know your afraid of it all)
I'm afraid of life!

Sadness comes in the night
Sadness goes in the day
(I know your afraid of it all)
Sadness comes in the day
Sadness goes in the night
(I know your afraid of it all)
I'm afraid of life!

Bullet

If being sad
Means that someone else will be happy
Ill bite that bullet
I'd even shove the gun down my throat.

Self sacrificing
Is just a lie
I display outside my heart
To make you like me
In so many words
To make you care

There are sometimes
I just want you to scream at me
Telling me that you love me
In anyway shape or form
Because I'm beginning to think
That I don't ever cross your mind
God I hope that's not true

Now if being sad
Means that someone else will be happy
Ill bite that bullet
I'd even shove the gun down my throat
In the most painful way

Its all a lie
My facade and I
Ten feet of ice
Surrounds my heart
But it still beats
Only for you

Now I'm falling asleep
Awaiting your reply
That you won't ever send
Because you're too messed up to care
Just like me

There are sometimes
I just want you to scream at me
Telling me that you love me
In anyway shape or form
Because I'm beginning to think
That I don't ever cross your mind
God I hope that's not true
I pray that's not true

if being sad
Means that someone else will be happy
Ill bite that bullet
I'd even shove the gun down my throat
While pulling the trigger

Start Tomorrow

I've charmed my way through life
Making friends I shouldn't have
passing by when I should of failed

Now I know
What it takes to be a man
And I don't think I've got there yet
Cause I'm not a man at all
I'm just a kid

Loving myself but really I don't
hating the choices I've made
When it comes down to fixing myself
I guess I should start today

Now I know
What it takes to be a man
And I don't think I've got there yet
Cause I'm not a man at all
I'm just a kid
Haunted by his memories
Of never trying hard enough
To reach my full potential
But I'm always getting by
And I hate myself for it
I should of failed
I should of died
But I know im not that lucky

Loving myself but really I don't
hating the choices I've made
When it comes down to fixing myself
I guess I should start today
I guess I should start today
Or maybe ill just start tomorrow.

Forever Never

Those words inside my head
Telling me to hate myself instead
Like all those boys in your bed
That make you feel so much better
I'm waking up again
To heartache and hand grenades
Blowing up my unrequited love for you

My weakness of character
Brings me to still talk you
About all the stupid shit you do
And all the lies you put me through
But now this is a silence
Between your heart and mine
Between my life and yours

X and Os only went so far
Breathing down my toyed with heart
Listening to how you'll always remember me
But not in a way that I want
Forever never in your arms.

Back and forth listening to you
Whine and die complain and cry
About the boys in your life
I'm sick of it
I want to be that boy
But I don't have the guts to tell you
unless I write it in this song
Ill be forever never in you arms

The worse part of this story
Is that deep down you really know
But you choose to ignore it
And let me suffer from myself
You tell me you care
But I'm not sure you really do
Brings me to question
Why I really want to be with you

Forever never in your arms
Forever never in your arms
Forever never in your arms
FOREVER NEVER IN YOUR
ARMS!