I shape my fingers as a gun
Point and click at my right temple
Blow my brains out
Wish it happened
Right that second
Grab the knife
So obviously imaginary
Stake it through my heart
To end all of my vampire tendencies
Im done sucking blood
From all of my best friends
Silver bullet through my chest
Kill me while I am a beast
So I can't so unconsciously
Harm everything right next to me
Its morning again as I
I shape my fingers as a gun
Point and click at my right temple
Blow my brains out
Wish it happened
Right that fucking second
Crosses to hold me at bay
When I know what I'm doing is wrong
But I'm doing it anyway
And if I get too out of control
Grab an axe and behead me
As soon as you get a chance
And if I rise again
Promise me you'll kill me again
Cause its not safe for you
When I an alive
Its the second coming as I
I shape my fingers as a gun
Point and click at my right temple
Blow my brains out
Wish it happened
RIGHT THIS FUCKING SECOND
And if I rise again
Promise me you'll kill me again
And if I rise again
Promise me you'll kill me again
And if I rise again
Promise me you'll kill me again
AND IF I RISE AGAIN
PROMISE ME YOU'LL KILL ME AGAIN
Saturday, December 31, 2011
Disappointment
I understand
That ill be a disappointment, in your eyes
And if it were up to me
I might just up and leave
But its the obligation
In the way we're connected
That makes me suffer at your feet
Does it make you angry
When I say
That I won't make it through college
That I don't have a plan or a job or any aspirations
That Ill end up spending my 20s as a ghost
That in the end
I don't want to be anything
I never really had a direction
I've just spent my life
Trying to live in a way
Where I would end up happy
Wherever the hell that is
Cause I'm confused at what to do
I waste days away with useless knowledge
All I want is to live in my own way
But that won't make you happy
No, I'm destined disappointment
Does it make you angry
When I say
That I won't make it through college
That I don't have a plan or a job or any aspirations
That Ill end up spending my 20s as a ghost
That in the end
I don't want to be anything
I'm so sorry
That I won't make you proud
I tried but its not my way
I just can't try anymore
I'm sorry
It makes me sad
To think of how you feel
When you think of how
I won't make it through college
I don't have a plan or a job or any aspirations
Ill end up spending my 20s as a ghost
In the end we both know I won't be anything
That ill be a disappointment, in your eyes
And if it were up to me
I might just up and leave
But its the obligation
In the way we're connected
That makes me suffer at your feet
Does it make you angry
When I say
That I won't make it through college
That I don't have a plan or a job or any aspirations
That Ill end up spending my 20s as a ghost
That in the end
I don't want to be anything
I never really had a direction
I've just spent my life
Trying to live in a way
Where I would end up happy
Wherever the hell that is
Cause I'm confused at what to do
I waste days away with useless knowledge
All I want is to live in my own way
But that won't make you happy
No, I'm destined disappointment
Does it make you angry
When I say
That I won't make it through college
That I don't have a plan or a job or any aspirations
That Ill end up spending my 20s as a ghost
That in the end
I don't want to be anything
I'm so sorry
That I won't make you proud
I tried but its not my way
I just can't try anymore
I'm sorry
It makes me sad
To think of how you feel
When you think of how
I won't make it through college
I don't have a plan or a job or any aspirations
Ill end up spending my 20s as a ghost
In the end we both know I won't be anything
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Home
I'd tell the saddest story
But I know you'll just laugh
When I mention all the times
I've never had to do anything for myself
But maybe in the end
That's exactly why I'm sad
So instead of singing shitty songs
About being on the road
Ill just sing shitty songs
About never leaving this town
And the only things I've ever loved
Whether it was the girl a town over who never really loved me
Or the restraunt I hit after midnight every night
With the same old friends who have yet to leave
I've never been good at change
But maybe I should start
I wouldn't count on it though
This life of leisure that I lead as apparent as it feels
Is the very reason that I can't stand the skin I live in
I just don't know what to do with my hands
So instead of singing shitty songs
About being on the road
Ill just sing shitty songs
About never leaving this town
And the only things I've ever loved
I haven't cut myself in six whole months
And I don't know about you
But that's a fucking accomplishment
Especially
When I've spent the whole last year
With a razor in my wallet
Just itching for this fight with myself to pick up again
So instead of singing shitty songs
About being on the road
Ill just sing shitty songs
About never leaving this town
And the only things I've ever loved
But I know you'll just laugh
When I mention all the times
I've never had to do anything for myself
But maybe in the end
That's exactly why I'm sad
So instead of singing shitty songs
About being on the road
Ill just sing shitty songs
About never leaving this town
And the only things I've ever loved
Whether it was the girl a town over who never really loved me
Or the restraunt I hit after midnight every night
With the same old friends who have yet to leave
I've never been good at change
But maybe I should start
I wouldn't count on it though
This life of leisure that I lead as apparent as it feels
Is the very reason that I can't stand the skin I live in
I just don't know what to do with my hands
So instead of singing shitty songs
About being on the road
Ill just sing shitty songs
About never leaving this town
And the only things I've ever loved
I haven't cut myself in six whole months
And I don't know about you
But that's a fucking accomplishment
Especially
When I've spent the whole last year
With a razor in my wallet
Just itching for this fight with myself to pick up again
So instead of singing shitty songs
About being on the road
Ill just sing shitty songs
About never leaving this town
And the only things I've ever loved
Heart Sounds
http://soundcloud.com/kevin-kelley/heartsong
I may be hundreds of miles away
But the sky is still the same
And I have memories of texting you
About how we still see the same moon
It makes me sick to my stomach
To remember all the lengths
I used to go through
For you to lie about how you loved me
My heart sounds are no longer in tune with you
And my heart beat is no longer in time with you
We're so out of sync but I'm still searching for another version you
Which I'm sure ill never find
I wake up at the crack of dusk
Wishing for all the time I wasted back
All the friends I used to have
That left their mark on my soul
For better or for worse
I am who I am today
All because of a girl
Cause when I fall
I hit the ground
-spoken- I remember that time I biked 30 miles to your house at 2 in the morning during the middle of winter because I was worried that you might kill yourself. You didn't. I got home that morning right before school started, exhausted, freezing, and sick I continued on.
The way the world worked back then
We were constantly intertwined
And I understand I made mistakes
But you made so much more
Still you kicked me out the door
I don't know how many times I've crawled back to you.
But let's make it not another more
My heart sounds are no longer in tune with you
And my heart beat is no longer in time with you
We're so out of sync but I'm still searching for another version you
Which I'm sure ill never find
Cause when I fall
I hit the ground
-spoken-
Maybe one day, some day far from now, you'll wake up and realize what you lost, but then again, you're not really one to care, especially when it comes to me.
I may be hundreds of miles away
But the sky is still the same
And I have memories of texting you
About how we still see the same moon
It makes me sick to my stomach
To remember all the lengths
I used to go through
For you to lie about how you loved me
My heart sounds are no longer in tune with you
And my heart beat is no longer in time with you
We're so out of sync but I'm still searching for another version you
Which I'm sure ill never find
I wake up at the crack of dusk
Wishing for all the time I wasted back
All the friends I used to have
That left their mark on my soul
For better or for worse
I am who I am today
All because of a girl
Cause when I fall
I hit the ground
-spoken- I remember that time I biked 30 miles to your house at 2 in the morning during the middle of winter because I was worried that you might kill yourself. You didn't. I got home that morning right before school started, exhausted, freezing, and sick I continued on.
The way the world worked back then
We were constantly intertwined
And I understand I made mistakes
But you made so much more
Still you kicked me out the door
I don't know how many times I've crawled back to you.
But let's make it not another more
My heart sounds are no longer in tune with you
And my heart beat is no longer in time with you
We're so out of sync but I'm still searching for another version you
Which I'm sure ill never find
Cause when I fall
I hit the ground
-spoken-
Maybe one day, some day far from now, you'll wake up and realize what you lost, but then again, you're not really one to care, especially when it comes to me.
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Home
Here in Manchester Fucking New Hampshire
Northeast pseudo capital of nothing
Where the snow falls on thanksgiving
And it rains throughout Christmas
Cause the weather from Canada or Florida
Just likes to fuck with us like that
And just like die hard four
We live free or die
Its nice to share something in common
With Bruce Willis
Although I think that's just out license plates
I think we might of had a president
In the nineteenth century
Born somewhere nearby
Franklin Pierce or something like that
He's was kind of forgettable and supported slavery
But here in New Hampshire we turn the other cheek
Oh for better or worse we're known for Adam sandler
He went to the same school that I did
Twenty something years earlier
And Sarah silvermen was born a town over
I guess we have something in the comedy department
To tie it all together, this place kind of sucks
But we love it anyway.
Northeast pseudo capital of nothing
Where the snow falls on thanksgiving
And it rains throughout Christmas
Cause the weather from Canada or Florida
Just likes to fuck with us like that
And just like die hard four
We live free or die
Its nice to share something in common
With Bruce Willis
Although I think that's just out license plates
I think we might of had a president
In the nineteenth century
Born somewhere nearby
Franklin Pierce or something like that
He's was kind of forgettable and supported slavery
But here in New Hampshire we turn the other cheek
Oh for better or worse we're known for Adam sandler
He went to the same school that I did
Twenty something years earlier
And Sarah silvermen was born a town over
I guess we have something in the comedy department
To tie it all together, this place kind of sucks
But we love it anyway.
Arrows and such
I always start out strong
But I manage to finish in last place
And I used to be stronger
But at one time I was weaker
So I'm content where I am right now
Giving up on you
Is the best thing that ill ever do
Giving up on everything
Just to start again
I'm sick of racing life
For its misery
I'm gonna calm down
And slow down
Cause I took a proverbial arrow to the knee
Fighting my feelings like I was Bruce lee
Its never to late to rethink life
So I'm starting now
No longer chasing the crown
Or reaching out for halos
Ill stick with my guitar for now
And giving up on you
Is the best thing that ill ever do
Giving up on everything
Just to start again
And giving up on you
Is the best thing that ill ever do
Giving up on everything
Just to start again
But I manage to finish in last place
And I used to be stronger
But at one time I was weaker
So I'm content where I am right now
Giving up on you
Is the best thing that ill ever do
Giving up on everything
Just to start again
I'm sick of racing life
For its misery
I'm gonna calm down
And slow down
Cause I took a proverbial arrow to the knee
Fighting my feelings like I was Bruce lee
Its never to late to rethink life
So I'm starting now
No longer chasing the crown
Or reaching out for halos
Ill stick with my guitar for now
And giving up on you
Is the best thing that ill ever do
Giving up on everything
Just to start again
And giving up on you
Is the best thing that ill ever do
Giving up on everything
Just to start again
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