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This is where good things go to die
And I remember when I lost all my friend here
This is where good things go to die
And I remember when I broke my heart here
This is where good things go to die
And I remember when I lost my life here

I guess it comes with my age
I've spent my entire life here
Eating at the local diner
At two thirty in the morning
Drowning myself in coffee
To forget all my problems
Only to remember them
For the next five hours laying in bed
I can't sleep
I wonder why

This is where good things go to die
And I remember when I lost all my friend here
This is where good things go to die
And I remember when I broke my heart here
This is where good things go to die
And I remember when I lost my life here
I guess it comes with a sad face

You might remember that one time
That we sat at the water front
For six fucking hours
That's the last time we had a real talk
I mentioned how you were fucked either way
Then we laughed about it

This is where good things go to die
And I remember when I lost all my friend here
This is where good things go to die
And I remember when I broke my heart here
This is where good things go to die
And I remember when I lost my life here
I guess it comes with this place

small smiles

I
AM
LOSING ALL MY FRIENDS
THROUGH APATHY AND AGONY

There are no words
To describe how I can't talk to you anymore
Out loud the words
Just don't come out of my mouth
And digitally
They just don't have the same meaning
Its like I'm mute with you
but too dead to care

So lighten up your little smiles
I burdened them all away
Feelings will mean more without me
I'm taking myself away

The last important thing I ever said
Was about how I feel in head
About how I don't think we'll remain friends
I couldn't stay alive for more than six months
Before I cut myself again
I hope that one day this trend with stop
Cause its a burden to us all
Mixing metal and flesh

So lighten up your little smiles
I burdened them all away
Feelings will mean more without me
I'm taking myself away

Its funny how you've acted
Since I've stopped trying at this colloquial game
Not a word or a peep
Our friendship was nothing more
Then a crutch anyway
So let's stop limping
And walk away

So lighten up your little smiles
I burdened them all away
Feelings will mean more without me
I'm taking myself away
Ill find myself a way.

Contradictions

I understand who I am now
I'm arrogant
I'm selfish
I probably think I'm better than you
But I hate myself
I hate myself too

I'm adamant about being a waste of space
Because I was always told that I was great
Its the curse of being self aware
And hating every minute

But despite all the negative
All I want to do is help others
And then drop out of their lives
Cause I'm too much a burden
To have around for long

Cause I understand who I am now
I'm sad and reflective
I'm emphatic
I expierence life through everyone else
And I'm burnt out
So god dammed burned out...

I desire to be of some use to someone else
But I can't even help myself
Because I don't want too
I just want to exist
I want to live in monotony
It would be easier that way

But despite all the negative
All I want to do is help others
And then drop out of their lives
Cause I'm too much a burden
To have around for long

Cause I understand who I am now
A man of contradictions
A man of emotions
A man of everything he's not
A man of everything
That I am not