Seventeen

I'm seventeen
With a sore back
My bones ache
With the thought of waking up

My motivation is alive
But just barely
At least I have my passion
But even that is dying

Hey
I already know im screwed
I don't need to hear it from you
Just let me live my life
Its all I got going
for me

I'm seventeen
Without direction
I don't know where I'm going
But I like that

I've got some heartache
Holding me down
I can't seem to let go
yeah I know
I'm just a stupid kid

Hey
I already know im screwed
I don't need to hear it from you
Just let me live my life
Its all I got going
for me

I'm seventeen
without dreams
I've got no plans
no big rich schemes

I'm just a loser
But at least I haven't lost
The only game that matters
Its the one you think it is

Hey
I already know im screwed
I don't need to hear it from you
Just let me live my life
Its all I got going
for me

I'm seventeen
Wasting away
It makes me happy
Wasting time
I guess I'm what you'd call
A waste of space
A waste of life
But I'm only seventeen
I can correct this later

Hey
I already know im screwed
I don't need to hear it from you
Just let me live my life
Its all I got going
for me

Start A Clap

listen to the views
of the unheard
and you might hear
something new
something fresh

take the story
to the news stand
tell it first
before you see the red light
be your own green light

start a clap
at the moment
you've been waiting for
its the only chance you'll ever get
but, don't, halt
your life for it
cause sometimes
you gotta make it happen

listen to the views
of the liar politicians
and you might get confused
but taking your anger out like lit fuse
only serves to burn you out faster

take the story
write it out
make it yours
scream it out
let the world know
your, out, there

start a clap
at the moment
you've been waiting for
its the only chance you'll ever get
but, don't, halt
your life for it
cause sometimes
you gotta make it happen

start a clap
at the moment
you've been waiting for
its the only chance you'll ever get
but, don't, halt
your life for it

cause sometimes
you gotta make it happen
you gotta make it happen

Sun Bright

My life is a little bit like nihilism
I've given in-to the spectacle
Yeah my life doesn't have a point
Cause I'm never gonna be some one
Let alone somebody

there's a hurt in the back of my mind
It says don't try
just give up
there's no reason to be alive
when alive
always finds a new way
To be a lie


and I'm nostalgic for the darker days
When numbness existed as a crutch
Now life is a flight of depression
flying above and beyond
The nights where it was so common
To wake up in fright while hating life

My life is a little bit like nihilism
I've given in-to the spectacle
Yeah my life doesn't have a point
Cause I'm never gonna be some one
Let alone somebody

And the story of the year 
Is how we can hold on
to something so pointless
Like manic depression
When it bites you on the lip
You know you're hooked forever

Nihilism is my comfort zone
knowing nothing matters
Allows me to take solace in my failures
But there's a point says the existentialist
you make your own reason to go on
While you define who you really are
Now I've been defined by a razorblade
By tears and pills and little black notebooks
But one day
I think ill define myself
With a smile
With a light shining so bright
yeah ill define myself
With a smile
With a light shining so bright
just because I can
Not because I want to no
As chaos makes the world go 'round
And for once
I just want to be apart
of something more than I will ever be

My life is a little bit like nihilism
I've given in-to the spectacle
Yeah my life doesn't have a point
Cause I'm never gonna be some one
Let alone somebody
but someday
ill define myself
With a smile
With a light
shining so bright
Yeah ill define myself
With a smile
With a light
shining so bright
Shining so bright
So bright
let's define ourselves
With a smile and a light that shines brighter
than the brightest sun

Winter Run

I'm trying
Trying
To get a hold of you
My phone is dead
And the interweb is down
Goddamn it the winter sucks

I take a ride on my bike
5 miles to your house
Its freezing cold
but my car broke down
And all my friends suck
did you hear that?
Yeah you all fucking suck

My bike chain snapped
half way there
And I couldn't decide
If I should turn back or not
oh well I guess its time to run
I'm flipping tired
but the situations dire
I guess I'm just a good boyfriend

I'm trying
Yeah I'm Trying
To get a hold of you
My phone is dead
And the interweb is down
Goddamn it the winter sucks

A mile away
I trip and fall
On some black ice
Into a snow bank
Yeah my life sucks

I really need to get to you
So I get up
and bolt faster then the flash
Its fucking cold
but my heart is warming up
With the thought of you
I ignore the frost bite
On my left ear

I'm trying
Yeah I'm Trying
To get a hold of you
My phone is dead
And the interweb is down
Goddamn it the winter sucks

I'm at your house
I call your name
You look out the window
There's a smile on your face
I yell to you
I think we should break up
There's a tear in your eye
But your laughing now
Cause I'm the one that's dead

I'm trying
Yeah I'm Trying
To get a hold of you
My phone is dead
And the interweb is down
Goddamn it the winter sucks

That's what I get
For being a shitty boyfriend.

Carousel

I'm taking a break
From the younger days
Where everything
and anything
Was taken close to
my heart

use to be
A battlefield
With word grenades
and razor blade
always coming down
on me

But for now ill play
This Carousel game
Where everybody
And anybody
Goes everywhere
And no where
So I can keep my
Head on straight
And everything will be okay
I swear I will walk away
walk away, away from this
Gotta get away from this

I'm taking a start
To stop this ride
Its boring and unfruitful
Where am I without sorrow
on this Carousel ride
Where everybody
And anybody
Goes everywhere
And no where
So I can keep my
Head on straight
And everything will be okay
I swear I will walk away
Walk away, away from this
Gotta get away from this

Punching Bag

I don't understand
Why everyone comes to me
with their problems
Its not like I don't have my own

now don't get me wrong
i don't mind
Helping out a friend
But its four in the morning
And I just want to be left alone

Just because I have experience
Doesn't mean I can help
I'm not a saint with good advice
- spoken -
I mean come on look at me
I used to hurt myself

Well fuck that noise
I'm better now
Ill help you too
But let me say
What's in my mind
Cause I might tell you
What you don't
want to hear

now don't get me wrong
i don't mind
Helping out a friend
But its four in the morning
I just want to be left alone

Well maybe ill try to help
But I don't see why you'd ask me
Its not like I volunteered
well whatever I hope I can be of some use
As your verbal punching bag
But when its four in the morning
Leave me the fuck alone

Sleepless Nights

Stay up
later each night
can't sleep
My eyes hate me
With every passing hour
There's only so much
the sky can entertain

I try to find something new to do
In place of the sleep
Laid down before me
I start writing songs for you
But you don't care
You never cared much for me
And all the words I string together
Even if they're all for you

Wake up
later every day
Mid day
Its three o'clock
And I'm still in bed
What's wrong with me?
 I can't seem to stay healthy
my health is fading but so are you

you came and went and came again
But guess what fuck you
Stop messing with my life
I don't want to deal with you

But you don't care
You never cared much for me
And all the words I string together
Even if they're all about you

Wake up
(sleepless nights)
Can't sleep
(mind is racing)
Mid day
(sun is setting)
Stay up
(writing song)
Wake up
(sleepless nights)
Can't sleep
(mind is racing)
Mid day
(sun is setting)
Stay up all night
writing songs about you