Heart Sounds

http://soundcloud.com/kevin-kelley/heartsong

I may be hundreds of miles away
But the sky is still the same
And I have memories of texting you
About how we still see the same moon
It makes me sick to my stomach
To remember all the lengths
I used to go through
For you to lie about how you loved me

My heart sounds are no longer in tune with you
And my heart beat is no longer in time with you
We're so out of sync but I'm still searching for another version you
Which I'm sure ill never find

I wake up at the crack of dusk
Wishing for all the time I wasted back
All the friends I used to have
That left their mark on my soul
For better or for worse
I am who I am today
All because of a girl
Cause when I fall
I hit the ground

-spoken- I remember that time I biked 30 miles to your house at 2 in the morning during the middle of winter because I was worried that you might kill yourself. You didn't. I got home that morning right before school started, exhausted, freezing, and sick I continued on.

The way the world worked back then
We were constantly intertwined
And I understand I made mistakes
But you made so much more
Still you kicked me out the door

I don't know how many times I've crawled back to you.
But let's make it not another more

My heart sounds are no longer in tune with you
And my heart beat is no longer in time with you
We're so out of sync but I'm still searching for another version you
Which I'm sure ill never find
Cause when I fall
I hit the ground

-spoken-
Maybe one day, some day far from now, you'll wake up and realize what you lost, but then again, you're not really one to care, especially when it comes to me.

Home

Here in Manchester Fucking New Hampshire
Northeast pseudo capital of nothing
Where the snow falls on thanksgiving
And it rains throughout Christmas
Cause the weather from Canada or Florida
Just likes to fuck with us like that

And just like die hard four
We live free or die
Its nice to share something in common
With Bruce Willis
Although I think that's just out license plates

I think we might of had a president
In the nineteenth century
Born somewhere nearby
Franklin Pierce or something like that
He's was kind of forgettable and supported slavery
But here in New Hampshire we turn the other cheek

Oh for better or worse we're known for Adam sandler
He went to the same school that I did
Twenty something years earlier
And Sarah silvermen was born a town over
I guess we have something in the comedy department
To tie it all together, this place kind of sucks
But we love it anyway.

Arrows and such

I always start out strong
But I manage to finish in last place
And I used to be stronger
But at one time I was weaker
So I'm content where I am right now

Giving up on you
Is the best thing that ill ever do
Giving up on everything
Just to start again

I'm sick of racing life
For its misery
I'm gonna calm down
And slow down
Cause I took a proverbial arrow to the knee
Fighting my feelings like I was Bruce lee

Its never to late to rethink life
So I'm starting now
No longer chasing the crown
Or reaching out for halos
Ill stick with my guitar for now

And giving up on you
Is the best thing that ill ever do
Giving up on everything
Just to start again

And giving up on you
Is the best thing that ill ever do
Giving up on everything
Just to start again

Moving On

I remember how I felt
When I started writing songs
Specifically about you
And I remember how I felt
When you didn't care at all
It was just yesterday
When I grew up
Just a little bit
Cause the fairytale ending
That I always hoped for
Will never come true
But the truth is
Maybe now I'm happy
Maybe now ill move on

Its almost the new year
And its another one of the phases
Where we will never talk again
That is until the spring
When you realize its my birthday
You'll wish me a happy one
And tell me that you love me
And ill say I love you back
But maybe I won't respond
Maybe ill move on
Even if that means
I'm growing up

Several years from now
We'll probably meet again
It will be a sad reunion
Ill be alone
While you'd be likely married
To someone who you just met
Cause that's just who you are
You always ignore
Just what you've always had
And now I'm catching on
So maybe I will move on
Maybe ill grow up
Even if it means growing away
From you

Just as a reminder
Ill keep my head about me
Singing this song
It will be the last one
That I will ever write
About you
Cause now I'm done
Now I'm moving on
Now I'm growing up
Its ironic I know
That I've always loved you
But you never loved me
So Finally
I guess
I need to
Thank you
One last time

Goodnight Kevin

Goodnight Kevin.
sleep well tonight
As tonight is the only night
to dream in heaven

Run away from demons
Life will be better
When you wake up
Life will be better

Goodnight Kevin
sleep well tonight
As tonight is the only night
To dream a good dream

Live long and prosper
That's what they say
But I'd rather
You just smile today

Goodnight Kevin
sleep well tonight
As tonight is the only night
To dream about love

Living in the night
Isn't as nice
as you might think
Its quite sorrowful

Quite sorrowful

(break)

Goodnight Kevin
sleep well tonight
As tonight is the only night
To dream at all

Beautiful Futures

The words that I sing
Like weak little lies
Attempt to hide
Just who I really am

Dependent on razors
And white little pills
Maybe a song
Or maybe some thrills
Equivalent to what you left behind

Now if only I could sing
I'd sing you a song
Worthy of you
And all of your futures
Your beautiful futures

The words that I sing
Like white little lies
Attempt to hide
Just how I truly feel

Due to hearts and hand grenades
My head explodes
All the time
When it comes to you
I wish I knew
Just what I should do
When it comes to you

And when it comes to you
I wish I could sing
Cause I'd sing you a song
One worthy of
All your beautiful futures
Your goddamn beautiful futures
I'm so fucking happy you have
Such beautiful futures

05.21.1993

http://soundcloud.com/kevin-kelley/nights

There's a time of the night
When I just need a face
To look me in the eyes
To tell me I'm alright

There's a time of the night
That requires a walk down the street
To hide in your arms
To make me feel alright

Sadness comes in the night
(I know your afraid of the dark)
Sadness comes in the night
(I know your afraid of the dark)
I'm afraid of the night!

There's a time of the night
When I could use a light
To open up in the sky
To remind me of you

There's a time of the night
When I could use a friend
To keep by my side
To keep me alive

Sadness comes in the night
(I know your afraid of the dark)
Sadness goes in the day
(I know your afraid of the light)
I'm afraid of today!

There's a time of the day
When the sun comes out
To burn away the night
To burn away self hate

There's a time of the day
That's worse than the night
Worse than my sadness
Worse than my life

That's when I'm asleep!

Sadness comes in the day
(I know your afraid of the light)
Sadness goes in the night
(I know your afraid of the dark)
I'm afraid of tonight!

It might be hard to believe
What its like to be me
How could I be so sad
How could it be so bad

My answer would be
That I did it myself
Made myself so hurt
Made myself pathetic

I brought myself so down
I brought my life to a halt
I just wanted to stop
I just want it to stop!

..(crickets)..

Sadness comes in the night
Sadness goes in the day
(I know your afraid of it all)
Sadness comes in the day
Sadness goes in the night
(I know your afraid of it all)
I'm afraid of life!

Sadness comes in the night
Sadness goes in the day
(I know your afraid of it all)
Sadness comes in the day
Sadness goes in the night
(I know your afraid of it all)
I'm afraid of life!