Signing Off, I'm Sorry.

Stakes through my eyes 
I can't see
Stapled shut doors
locked for me 
I can't get in 
I can't get inside 
 
start from finish 
There's an end to this 
Turn off the lights 
to a dark abyss 
I can't get out 
I can't get out
of here.
 
I've got an apology for two 
This is a lie from me to you 
Signing off I'm done with this
turn the tables that I'm lost within 
I've forgotten just what I've meant 
By those words I said 
Words I said 
 
I can't feel 
what its like to be me
Its not fair 
To be a whiner like me 
I'm not sure 
that Ill ever recover 
Ever recover
I feel like
another modern myth
 
I've lost sight of who I am
To anxious to see
who I'm meant to be
Its a tragedy
So shame on me 
Whoever that is
Whoever I am 
 
I've got an apology for two 
This is a lie from me to you 
Signing off I'm done with this
turn the tables that I'm lost within 
I've forgotten just what I've meant 
By those words I said 
Words I said 
I said 
Signing off I'm done with this

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i love this one.

no lie.

I Never Knew There Was A New Way To Go When Walking Backwards.

I swear she never meant a thing to me 
Of course she meant everything to me 
But I couldn't tell you even if I tried 
Some times life sucks even when you try 
 
Stories told of a new way
Its one that I never learned
Through relationships
that always failed
They tell me To live and let live 
but I say to Live life but die young 
 
I've been with many women 
but ive never been with you 
looking at you from a far 
Everybody I've met knows your name
but they never know you 
God I wish I could love you 
 
Stories told of a new way
Its one that I never learned
Through relationships that always failed
They tell me 
To live and let live 
but I say 
Live life and die young 
Yeah live live just to die young.
I want to die young
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i like.

but i might need to make it longer.

Graduation.

Cap and gown

Measurements 
Five feet ten
Head to toe 
 
There's no lies 
Like an alabi 
cover me
I'm Getting out
Before it gets here 
gets here
Graduation 
sorry but its not my thing 
 
names called 
have to stand 
Up and start 
shaking hands  

I've got a dress 
Starting today 
Its the beginning
of the end
Of the end

For me and
you are just 
sitting alone 
Watching idle 
as I pass by 
Thanks for giving
up my life 
Before I even knew 
That I had a chance 
had a chance

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too short, inspired while i was at school. 

i dislike it.

Time Fixes.

I set my broken watch an hour late 
And no it doesn't even match the date 
So today is yesterday as it is tomorrow 
 
Time keeps spinning 
Time keeps flowing 
On and on Its just another story
that doesn't end with you or me 
No no 
 
And I'm sick 
And I'm sad 
And I'm tired and loney 
But none of this matters 
With you up on me
 
And I'm mad
And I'm hurt
And life is bleak and gloomy 
so I take another pill 
And I call you honey bear 
 
But,
Time keeps spinning 
Time keeps flowing 
On and on Its just another story
that doesn't end with you or me 
Yeah yeah 
 
And when I need to start up again 
I set my broken watch an hour late 
And no it doesn't even match the date 
So today is yesterday as it is tomorrow 

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it's okay

i just really like the change of rhythm in the vocals.

(at least in my head) 

Poisoned Life

I'm sorry its my fault
That you're hurting now
I'm sorry its my fault
That I'm dying now
I think I'm to blame
I think I'm the same
As you,
As you
 
Our lives are almost up and 
The last words on my lips are
"please let me tell you now
I wish that I could hold you now
I wish that I could see you now
I wish that I could be you now"
But its too late,
Too late
 
When your in my head 
your in my bed 
I'm forgetting that 
I keep thinking that maybe
Maybe this is all to easy
Maybe this is all unfair
To you,
To you 
 
This is a note
To myself 
Starting off with
I'm sorry, 
But I can't live
Like this
 
I'm sick it hurts
Like you've poisoned me 
I'm a dying breed 
Please let this be 
The last time I breathe
The last time I see 
See you,
See me
 
This is a note
To myself 
Starting off with
I'm sorry, 
But I can't live
Like this
 
This is a note
To myself 
Starting off with
I'm sorry, 
But I can't live
Like this
 
I'm sorry, 
But I can't live
Like this
 
I'm sorry, 
But I can't live
Like this
 
I'm sorry, 
But I can't live
Like this
 
I'm sorry, 
But I can't live
Like this
 
I'M SORRY
BUT I CAN'T LIVE 
LIKE THIS....

This is a note
To myself 

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wrote this on the fly.

i like. 

On and Off

Tell all my friends
I said goodbe
On the twenty-first
It's a choice of mine

I can't go on
I can't get off
Of this path of mine

In one more week
I'm a suicide
Does this disturb you
Is this not right?


I can't go on
I can't get off
Think this is right

My mind is set
Your body's wet
Are you excited?
Are you afraid?


I can't go on
I can't get off
When i'm feeling this afraid

So, Tell all my friends
I said goodbe
On the twenty-first
It's a choice of mine

In The Name Of

I'm gonna slit my throat
In the name of love
With a kitchen knife
That's soaked in your blood

I'm gonna die today
Its a victory
For a coward
Who always runs away

And you expect me to care
About all the little things
But i'm giving up
This sunday morning
But i swear
This isn't giving up on you
It's giving up on me

I'm gonna cut myself
In the name of God
With a plastic knife
Soaked in chemicals

I'm gonna hang myself
It's my closing statement
Its all i have left to prove
To no one but myself

And you expect me to care
About all the little things
But i'm giving up
This sunday morning
But i swear
This isn't giving up on me
It's giving up on you

Or maybe i'm just taking you down
Maybe i'm just taking myself down
Cause what i can't give up
I just take down.

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i wrote this on a night without sleep.