Organs

I'm an organ donor
Of the highest degree
I donate these feelings
For anyone to keep

My heart will be dead soon
I'm giving it to you
If you can get it to beat once more
Well then good for you
But I doubt it will beat enough for two

My brain is nearing its last thoughts
My consciousness is worried
But my broken mind
Has accepted to dream
My body to sleep
No more worrying for me

One by one
My organs go
To someone else
To a better place
For something much greater than I
Hope to see them when I die

When my insides are examined
They will notice
They're used to being nervous
All the bats left inside my aching stomach
From the day I met you
I've always been afraid of butterflies

One by one
My organs go
To someone else
To a better place
For something much greater than I
Hope to see them when I die

For anyone to keep
I doubt it will beat enough for two
No more worrying for me
I've always been afraid of butterflies
But I hope to see them when I die

Dandelion

I couldn't close this heart
Even if I wanted to
So walk right in
Be the worst friend
I could ever ask for
At least then
I have something
I can write these shitty songs about

You were the last thing
I ever I let inside
And look how that's working out for me
I know it's not really cool to regret
But I think I just might regret you now

You took advantage of
My compulsive need
To help the world in front of me

You waltzed right in like a dandelion in a field of grass
Sucking happiness wherever you went
And I know
it's not friendly to start pulling teeth
But I'm getting ready to pluck the head from the stem
Making wishes at your demise

You were the last thing
I ever I let inside
And look how that's working out for me
I know it's not really cool to regret
But I think I just might regret you now

You were the worst friend
You were the best friend
A kid could ever ask for
You were the best friend
You were the worst friend
A kid could ever ask for

You were the last thing,
I ever let inside.

The Hare Peacefully Drowns in the Ocean

http://soundcloud.com/kevin-kelley/the-hare-peacefully-drowns-in
I am a sea of regrets
Waving back and forth
Like a dream I can't forget
Why did I let myself succumb
To a feeling like this

Life is miserable when spent alone
But It's worse when you remember what it's like to be loved
I'm thinking of destroying everything good
That waltzes back and forth in my reality
Just to avoid it all crashing down when I'm teased with being happy

I remember the look in her eyes as she looked for reassurance on how I felt
I so desperately wanted to comfort her as she turned away in her car
But I knew I couldn't do it and i accepted I wasn't enough
There was nothing in my heart ready for something so important as her happiness
I turned back and ran to corners of my mind

I played a song on repeat
One to get me through the night
I knew I couldn't slit my wrists
If I wanted her to think I was okay
With the way that the situation panned out
I wouldn't want her to feel bad anyway
I know I can't let people feel bad for my mistakes.

I lost track of how I felt
In between falling in love
I never knew
If I wanted this
The scars on my wrist
like faded memories
Reminding me
Of how to escape

The melody of my heart began to fade
Despite any attempt I've ever made
I began to wonder if this is it
Like the flame in my house was i forgot was lit
I burned myself down
In my ocean of regret I started to drown.
It was the most at peace I've ever been

The melody of my heart began to fade
Despite any attempt I've ever made
I began to wonder if this is it
Like the flame I forgot in my house was lit
I burned myself down
In my ocean of regret I started to drown.
It was the most at peace I've ever been
Until I saw her face again

Blue Bird

http://soundcloud.com/kevin-kelley/blue-bird 

There is a blue jay outside my window
I think this is the happiest I have been in months
I am starting to let go
of thinking thoughts
I'm starting to attempt to grow up
I am beginning
to conquer my anxieties
And if you knew me
You would know that this is a big deal
And the freedom of this bluest bird
Is making me realize
I want to spread my wings
I want to fly away
But you can come if you want too
My blue bird

there is a bluejay outside my window
I think this is the happiest I have been in months
I am starting to attempt to grow up
And the freedom of this bluest bird
Is making me realize
I want to spread my wings
I want to fly away

there's a bluejay outside my window
I think this is the happiest I have been in months

Heads and Other Perversions

http://soundcloud.com/kevin-kelley/heads-and-other-perversions

I've taken off my head
More times then I can remember
It's not that I enjoy it
It just helps me fall asleep at night
I have so much trouble falling to sleep at night

And I've forgone drugs for depression
Why would I be high when I can be low
As close to the ground as i can be
Cause I know that I will be there one day
Underground I mean
That's why I sleep on my floor
I'm preparing for century's of boredom
Sleeping like a stiff
But as happy as a corpse

I don't even drink
But not because I don't approve
I just need to stay in control
Cause if I'm not then I'll make a mistake
And if I make a mistake
My world will end
And I completely believe that

I've taken off my head
More times then I can remember
It's not that I enjoy it
It just helps me fall asleep at night
I have so much trouble falling to sleep at night

I don't really approve of anything I do
But I'll do it anyway
Cause I no longer matter
The only things that really do
Have the names of my friends
That was hint it's my friends

I don't really approve of anything I do
But ill do it anyway
I don't really approve of anything I do
But I'll do it anyway
I don't really approve of anything I do
But I'll do it anyway
I don't really approve of anything I do
But I'll do it if it makes you happy
If it makes you smile
If it makes you cry
If it makes you feel at all
I just want you to feel in the vicinity of me

I've taken off my head
More times then I can remember
It's not that I enjoy it
It just helps me fall asleep at night
I have so much trouble falling to sleep at night
So I resort to taking off my head

Home

Sleeping in cars in the day
In parking lots near taco bell
When night falls they're lucky
We don't try to rob them
With our sadness as our weapons

And it's finally snowing here in Manchester
On the leap day of the leap year
I'll call it a miracle if you let me
But i'm just happy it's here

My house is a safe house
For all my friends and more
I let everyone in
Who needs a place to stay
As long as they respect the place

There's this girl here that I fancy
She wants to save the world
But she won't save herself first
And I don't know what I really feel
I think I just need something to heal

And it's finally snowing here in Manchester

On the leap day of the leap year

I'll call it a miracle if you let me

But i'm just happy it's here

Now i'm wondering what to do

Where to head with my life

I understand that i'm thinking a little to much about this

Adding to the burden on my shoulders

I might finally leave this town

But it's going to be hard

Cause all my memories reside here

And it's snowing here in Manchester Fucking New Hampshire

It's something that i'll always miss.

It's Not You, It's Him.

How long does it take you
To get to my house
I only live five fucking blocks away
We're on a god damn schedule
The mall closes in an hour
And I want the new Final Fantasy

It's too bad
That the nerd in me
Outbids the romantic
90 percent of the time
So I don't think you're getting roses tonight
But we could role play if you want too

I'm sorry honey
But i'm gonna play the mass effect demo
This valentines day
Because Commander Shepperd
Means so much more to me
Then you will ever be
And it's not that I don't love you
I just love him more.

So stop scolding me
For loving fantasy
More than reality
It's just that science-fiction
Is so much better than real life.

I mean how could you argue
When you've seen Keanu Reeves
Know kung-fu in The Matrix
There's just something about that guy
That makes me love everything
He's ever done
I wish he was my bestfriend

And i'm sorry honey
But i'm going to spend this valentines day
Playing Mass Effect 3
Commander Shepperd just means so much more to me
Then you will ever be.