Seasonal Monsters

With each passing day
I face the darkest array
Of monsters and men
They sleep in my head
They call themselves my friends
And I tend to believe them

Running from shadows in daylight
They catch up to me at midnight
Blue eyes turned black eyed
From back alley bar fights
Between me and my mind
Losing track of time
Looking for a sign
Will I be okay one day?

Scars highlight my skin
Telling tales of failed defense
I guess I wasn't strong enough
To fight off my darker thoughts
My weakness shows the truth
Of what I have been through

Running from shadows in daylight
They catch up to me at midnight
Blue eyes turned blacked eyed
From back alley bar fights
Between me and my mind
Losing track of time
Looking for a sign
Will I be okay one day?

I think it's just this autumn weather
I feel like I am dying with the leaves
I can't wait til the flowers of spring
Start blooming in the rain
Maybe then I will have hope again

Bedroom Emotions

I blame it on the ecstasy I'm feeling
But I want to see your bed room ceiling
Tell me what words I can say to you
To make this dream come true

All I really want to do
Is to see your bedroom
All I really want to do
Is to see your bedroom

I'm not usually this kind of guy
I have exes who would testify
But I think that I just might
Find to find a way to share these covers tonight

All I really want to do
Is to see your bedroom
All I really want to do
Is to see your bedroom

I think i'm getting drunk off the thought of you
I just hope that you're getting drunk too
Cause how else would I get to be
In your bedroom under your sheets

All I really want to do
Is to see your bedroom
All I really want to do
Is to see your bedroom

All I really want to do
Is to sleep next to you
All I really want to do
Is to sleep next to you

The Avalanche

The snow fell with such beauty at dawn
Until I scarred it with my defects
I know now, that I am the monster here
I am the abominable snowman

This is me collapsing
This is the avalanche
This is me collapsing
This is the avalanche

Ex-Friends Forever

I don't know how I should feel
About you're uncommon sex appeal
Every word that you have said
Has brought me to an early end
And I know that you're a bitch
But I think that I'm okay with it

I've made choices I regret
But I know that I can't go back
To the way things used to be
The only problem is that
I'm dying without her

I've seen lightning strike you twice
And now you no longer have the will to fight
You've accepted the anchor
Dragging you down with all it's might
And I so desperately wanted to save you
But that anchor draged me down too

I've made choices I regret
And I would love to go back
To the way things used to be
The only problem is
I was dying with her

And I didn't know
How to rectify
This situation
I said goodbye
So long ago
And all I wanted
Was to crawl my way
Back to you
Even though I knew
It would destroy us both

And now the end is near my dear
Regrettably i know, i don't care
The story of two poisonous friends
That at one point tried to be lovers
Only to end up losing each other

Fiction

I don't know who I am
All I know is who I've been
And I hope I turn out
As someone different than him
Or so help me god
I think I might kill myself
To save the world
From having to deal with my bullshit
Please world if it comes to it
Won't you please
Turn off the lights on my life

The setting sun steals away
Any resemblance of happiness from my soul
But then why is it that I treat the night
Like it comforting to me
Maybe I'm just comfortable being sad
But wouldn't that make me just as bad
As all those people who have given up on life already
Shouldn't I feel the want to be happy?
Shouldn't I want to make it out of here alive?
Shouldn't I want to live a long life?
I think I failed at personhood
If this is normal then I feel bad for anyone
Who's has ever had to live

I know that I should keep writing my story
But it's two hundred pages in and it's so god damn boring
I'm not sure if its even worth finishing
My life is terrible inspiration
For my own bleak future
I know it's wrong but I'm just waiting
For someone else's story to intertwine
With my own
It's the only way that I can imagine
That my story would be worth reading
Nonfiction has never sat well with me
I prefer everything with a touch of fantasy

Time to own up to my life
Time to get my shit together
Time to wake up without wanting to die
Time to wake up from my dreams
Time to start my day wanting to be alive

Lady Luck

I slept with luck today
I asked her if I could
Borrow her for a couple hours
I need help with my
Day to day common interactions
I'm no good with conversations

I slept in with luck today
I guess that you could say
That I had a good time
I just hope that she stays
I could use her around
She makes me feel okay

I overslept with luck today
I got on her bad side
Everything is going wrong
Everything is starting to fall apart

I overslept with luck today
I got her bad side
I'm losing track of what I wrote
I don't know what to sing
It all changed in one night
A happiness decayed
Everything was alright
And now it's just okay
Everything was alright
And now it's just okay

Blue Bird (Satisfactual)

I saw a blue bird in my dream
He told me to wake up and see
That everything could be what i want it to be
I just had to try
I just need to try

That blue bird got me through the night where I put my heart on the line
You were the answer to my life
You balanced the equation
That is me

I saw that blue bird outside my window
The morning that you said
I would not be a part of your plans
Pushed to the wayside left on the roadside
I didn't know
Where to go

That blue bird he gave me hope
Told me the secret to growing up
Head in the clouds
Feet on the ground
Heart in a safe
Hope for the sky
Hold on to those
Four simple lines
Noted and filed in the
back of your mind

That blue bird helped me through my life
Gave me a chance to see the light
That blue bird helped me through my life
Gave me a chance to see the light
That blue bird helped me through my life
Gave me a chance to see the light