Red Light District

Sitting at red lights
Knowing that they'll never turn green
Its a pass time of ours
To waste time in this meaningful way
Broken red lights
Symbolic of our everything

Cars backed up behind us
Wasting time for everyone
But they fail to realize
That life is one red light

So I hope you're waiting for me
Because I have been waiting
For hours and hours
If you keep waiting
You'll soon be dead
Then ill have my own head

The cars behind our car
Don't run this never ending light
For fear of doing something wrong
In front of a perfect stranger

Sitting at red lights
Knowing that they'll never turn green
Its a pass time of ours
To waste time in this meaningful way
Broken red lights
Symbolic of our everything

You and me
And our little troubles
Pass by with our broken
Streak of luck
Which of such we never truly had
Bad luck is just my favorite excuse
As that is all I really want to have

But I think Ill be biting my tongue
When this fucking car
Follows us down this lonely shitty street
Scary thoughts of ultimate bad luck
Filling our heads
As that sketchy car takes an uzi to our face
We pass out only to find out
We've been dead this entire fucking time

End Of Our Lives

I never met an adult I liked
But now I guess I am one
So now I think I hate myself
Nothing ever really changes

I've never had a positive role model
Everybody I knew has gone wrong
Self-destroyed their own life
With false love and weak wills
They've paved a path for a monster
A self-inflicting masochist
With bloody arms and bloody wrists
Who hates everyone and everything
But he loves them all just the same
This paradox is his game

Now I am wearing thin
This chaos seems like home
Where my head has been made a prison
And my heart is the warden
This time its driving me crazy
To be divided like this
But I think the answer lies
in a prison brake
So mark my words
If I ever got a hold of a gun
I'd kiss this hell goodbye

I stopped caring
the exact minute
I saw your inhuman eyes
I knew I met a demon
I knew I saw the devil in disguise
My childs heart
Blackened in response
I saw my fate before my eyes
I'd end up a suicide
But to bad I don't believe in fate

And maybe
Somewhere along the way
Ill find a reason to believe
Ill have a change of heart
One where Ill fix my broken self
By destroying the monster
And rebuilding myself
Because picking up the pieces
And putting them back together
never truly works for long

And its true
I've never met an adult I liked
But now I guess I am one
So ill be better then all of them
Ill be someone's role model
I won't ever give up
No I won't ever give up.

Giving Up

I've got news for you angel
I've fallen and there's no way back
To the place that you find most sacred
To the place we've bleed our love away

And I am sick and tired of being told
To be happy to be grateful that I'm still alive
To get right back up again like nothing happened
If I want to suffer then goddamnit let me suffer

Its my own way to live its my own way to sing
With a broken spine and a broken voice
I am never getting back up ever again
Please don't hate me for giving up

Please dear I want you to know
who's dying here in the freezing snow
Who's lying down freezing cold with sickening feelings
Ill make it a point to be as weak as possible
So you can swoop in and do your thing
But in reality I don't want to be saved

I just want to die
Is that so hard to believe
But I want you to be satisfied
So go on and save my life
Whatever makes you happy
(I just want to see you smile)

And I am sick and tired of being told
To be happy to be grateful that I'm still alive
To get right back up again like nothing happened
If I want to suffer then goddamnit let me suffer

Its my own way to live its my own way to sing
With a broken spine and a broken voice
I am never getting back up ever again
Please don't hate me for giving up

But if it makes you happy
Ill put on a good show
Ill wake up every morning
With a smile on my face
Acting like everything is okay
But knowing that nothing
Has ever been okay
So I'm sorry to say
That I'm giving up today

I'm giving up today
I hope that you find that okay
I'm giving up today
I'm sick and tired of being alive
I'm sick and tired of living a lie
I'm giving up today
IM GIVING UP TODAY!!!!!

Stick By Me

I'm just a kid with no ambition
I fail at all attempts of motivation
Self-loathing has never felt so good

I think I hate myself
For all of the right reasons
Cause the wrong ones never stuck by me

Slit wrists
Fast kicks
Quick fix
Gotta feel better
Gotta get better
Now

I'm just a kid, its not worth living
The future is something I just don't believe in
But my past is as broken as I am

I think I hate myself
For all of the right reasons
Cause the wrong ones never stuck by me

Slit wrists
Fast kicks
Quick fix
Gotta feel better
Gotta get better
Now

I'm just a kid with no ambition
I fail at all attempts of motivation
Self-loathing has never felt so good

Alive

At one time I was alive
I actually wanted to be alive
Now my patience is running thin
Life is losing any point it once had

At one time I was alive
I actually wanted to be alive
Now my patience is running thin
Life is losing any point it once had

Times like this I wish I was afraid
To take my life to take anything at all
it is not fair to you That I am who I am
So please let me be nonexistent

Times like this I wish I was afraid
To take my life to take anything at all
it is not fair to you That I am who I am
So please let me be nonexistent

Fake pills false wills Is everything I am
There's no reason why I should be alive
There's no reason why I would still be alive
There's no reason why I could call myself alive

Fake pills false wills Is everything I am
There's no reason why I should be alive
There's no reason why I would still be alive
There's no reason why I could call myself alive

Honesty

Drinking to the death of me
Fucking is the end of me
I have no future where I'm concerned
blood sweat and tears are to much for me
Ill stick with blood and tears its easier
To bleed and whine about my life
Its all I have its all I have

Broken changing without a doubt
Who am I who I am is
Sickening words strung together
Telling lies about who I am
Despite not knowing the truth
I am the lost soul in plain sight
blurry eyed I've lost my way
But you have too you have too

Turn off the lights
Its to bright in here for me
I like the dark But I'm afraid
Of everything around me that could be
Lurking in the shadows
Like I always do
Like I always do
I guess that means I'm afraid of myself
Fuck it I'm afraid of myself.

Conventional or
Superficial thoughts
He said she said
That I'm not worth it
Well fuck it I'm not worth it

Unconventional or
Motivational thoughts
He said she said
That I am worth it
Fuck it I'm still not worth it

Now I am forever silent
Screaming whispers
It can't be known
Just who I am by how I look
My conscience yearns to shut out
Everything you say to me
While I just want to shut off
Every fucking sound I hear tonight
I'm sick of hearing your voice
I'm so fucking sick of your voice

Girls

All the girls look at me
With such disgust in their face
I'd go home and cry
But I've found where I belong
With a middle finger pointed at them
I've lived my life alone

So hostile I look upon the world
With such wrath I cater to my intentions
Ill make a mark before I die
I swear it girly I can't be your guy

This life was given to me
In the form of a regret
They wrote upon my wall
Told my story before I had a chance

Did you have a laugh
A belly full of past
Written in bold ink
Typed down for all to see
Or is it hidden in a diary
Your secrets safe with me

Maybe my rambling is justified
Maybe my life is a lie
Maybe I'm on the top of the world
Maybe I've fallen so far...

CUT OFF MY MIDDLE FINGER
(before I point it at you)
END ALL OF MY AGGRESSIVE
(make peace at last)
WOULD THAT MAKE ME A BETTER PERSON
DO YOU THINK YOU'D LOVE ME MORE.

Cut off my middle finger
End all of my aggression
Would that make me a better person
Do you think you'd love me more...