Suicidal Quandries.

I hate myself
So you don't have to
Its okay
I'm not ashamed
No shame
in being a martyr
No shame
For myself
I just care
for everything
But myself
And i can't seem
to hate enough

Its a sign of warning
When all your friends
start freaking out
And you can't help but notice
all the panic in the air
Being suicidal isn't fair

Jesus doesn't want you
Your friends are afraid of you
You've got nowhere to go
So you play doctor with a knife
And when it doesn't turn out right
Your dragged straight into a hospital
The devil shreads on his little fiddle
And you narrowly escape your own demise
This is so fucked up!

Dying is supposed to be a choice
One decided in a compromise
Between yourself and your mind
Why should you be patronized
For taking your own life

Its a sign of warning
When all your friends
start freaking out
And you can't help but notice
all the panic in the air
Being suicidal isn't fair

I can't imagine
The thoughts of others
When I'm covered in blood
Can you imagine
The look in their eyes...

I can't imagine
What others think
When they see you and me
Splashed with blood
Lying on ground...

Can you imagine
What everyone will think
When they find you dead
For the last time...

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it's ok.
i dont know how i would turn it into a real song though.
not 100% sure how to explain what i was trying to do with this either...
oh! and more fading out.