Bullet

If being sad
Means that someone else will be happy
Ill bite that bullet
I'd even shove the gun down my throat.

Self sacrificing
Is just a lie
I display outside my heart
To make you like me
In so many words
To make you care

There are sometimes
I just want you to scream at me
Telling me that you love me
In anyway shape or form
Because I'm beginning to think
That I don't ever cross your mind
God I hope that's not true

Now if being sad
Means that someone else will be happy
Ill bite that bullet
I'd even shove the gun down my throat
In the most painful way

Its all a lie
My facade and I
Ten feet of ice
Surrounds my heart
But it still beats
Only for you

Now I'm falling asleep
Awaiting your reply
That you won't ever send
Because you're too messed up to care
Just like me

There are sometimes
I just want you to scream at me
Telling me that you love me
In anyway shape or form
Because I'm beginning to think
That I don't ever cross your mind
God I hope that's not true
I pray that's not true

if being sad
Means that someone else will be happy
Ill bite that bullet
I'd even shove the gun down my throat
While pulling the trigger

Start Tomorrow

I've charmed my way through life
Making friends I shouldn't have
passing by when I should of failed

Now I know
What it takes to be a man
And I don't think I've got there yet
Cause I'm not a man at all
I'm just a kid

Loving myself but really I don't
hating the choices I've made
When it comes down to fixing myself
I guess I should start today

Now I know
What it takes to be a man
And I don't think I've got there yet
Cause I'm not a man at all
I'm just a kid
Haunted by his memories
Of never trying hard enough
To reach my full potential
But I'm always getting by
And I hate myself for it
I should of failed
I should of died
But I know im not that lucky

Loving myself but really I don't
hating the choices I've made
When it comes down to fixing myself
I guess I should start today
I guess I should start today
Or maybe ill just start tomorrow.

Forever Never

Those words inside my head
Telling me to hate myself instead
Like all those boys in your bed
That make you feel so much better
I'm waking up again
To heartache and hand grenades
Blowing up my unrequited love for you

My weakness of character
Brings me to still talk you
About all the stupid shit you do
And all the lies you put me through
But now this is a silence
Between your heart and mine
Between my life and yours

X and Os only went so far
Breathing down my toyed with heart
Listening to how you'll always remember me
But not in a way that I want
Forever never in your arms.

Back and forth listening to you
Whine and die complain and cry
About the boys in your life
I'm sick of it
I want to be that boy
But I don't have the guts to tell you
unless I write it in this song
Ill be forever never in you arms

The worse part of this story
Is that deep down you really know
But you choose to ignore it
And let me suffer from myself
You tell me you care
But I'm not sure you really do
Brings me to question
Why I really want to be with you

Forever never in your arms
Forever never in your arms
Forever never in your arms
FOREVER NEVER IN YOUR
ARMS!

Party.

I hope you're ready to lose some friends

Roll the dice then hit the block
You'll never know how far you'll really go
Cause life is like a game
And sometimes (sometimes)
you just have to trust in lady luck
To guide you through

Maybe you're a winner
(Or maybe you're a loser)
Maybe you've got a star under your belt
(Maybe you've got no chance to win)
Maybe you've got coins to spare
On items like mystical lamps
(But what does winning mean anyway)
If your still having fun
I hope you're having fun!

If you care to much
Or don't care at all
Go on leave it to luck
When skill fails you
You know you its time for
Chance Time!

Someone might get hurt
Someone might get paid
You might lose a friend
You might lose it all
All because of chance
You might go from
Hero to Zero Or Zero to Hero

Maybe you're a winner
(Or maybe you're a loser)
Maybe you've got a star under your belt
(Maybe you've got no chance to win)
Maybe you've got coins to spare
On items like mystical lamps
(But what does winning mean anyway)
If your still having fun
I hope you're having fun!

Cause it feels like this game will never end
(but secretly you never want it to)
You're hoping for last turn star power
(your hoping for a perfect ending)
One where you'll win by the last turn
One where you become the
SUPER STAR!

Red Light District

Sitting at red lights
Knowing that they'll never turn green
Its a pass time of ours
To waste time in this meaningful way
Broken red lights
Symbolic of our everything

Cars backed up behind us
Wasting time for everyone
But they fail to realize
That life is one red light

So I hope you're waiting for me
Because I have been waiting
For hours and hours
If you keep waiting
You'll soon be dead
Then ill have my own head

The cars behind our car
Don't run this never ending light
For fear of doing something wrong
In front of a perfect stranger

Sitting at red lights
Knowing that they'll never turn green
Its a pass time of ours
To waste time in this meaningful way
Broken red lights
Symbolic of our everything

You and me
And our little troubles
Pass by with our broken
Streak of luck
Which of such we never truly had
Bad luck is just my favorite excuse
As that is all I really want to have

But I think Ill be biting my tongue
When this fucking car
Follows us down this lonely shitty street
Scary thoughts of ultimate bad luck
Filling our heads
As that sketchy car takes an uzi to our face
We pass out only to find out
We've been dead this entire fucking time

End Of Our Lives

I never met an adult I liked
But now I guess I am one
So now I think I hate myself
Nothing ever really changes

I've never had a positive role model
Everybody I knew has gone wrong
Self-destroyed their own life
With false love and weak wills
They've paved a path for a monster
A self-inflicting masochist
With bloody arms and bloody wrists
Who hates everyone and everything
But he loves them all just the same
This paradox is his game

Now I am wearing thin
This chaos seems like home
Where my head has been made a prison
And my heart is the warden
This time its driving me crazy
To be divided like this
But I think the answer lies
in a prison brake
So mark my words
If I ever got a hold of a gun
I'd kiss this hell goodbye

I stopped caring
the exact minute
I saw your inhuman eyes
I knew I met a demon
I knew I saw the devil in disguise
My childs heart
Blackened in response
I saw my fate before my eyes
I'd end up a suicide
But to bad I don't believe in fate

And maybe
Somewhere along the way
Ill find a reason to believe
Ill have a change of heart
One where Ill fix my broken self
By destroying the monster
And rebuilding myself
Because picking up the pieces
And putting them back together
never truly works for long

And its true
I've never met an adult I liked
But now I guess I am one
So ill be better then all of them
Ill be someone's role model
I won't ever give up
No I won't ever give up.

Giving Up

I've got news for you angel
I've fallen and there's no way back
To the place that you find most sacred
To the place we've bleed our love away

And I am sick and tired of being told
To be happy to be grateful that I'm still alive
To get right back up again like nothing happened
If I want to suffer then goddamnit let me suffer

Its my own way to live its my own way to sing
With a broken spine and a broken voice
I am never getting back up ever again
Please don't hate me for giving up

Please dear I want you to know
who's dying here in the freezing snow
Who's lying down freezing cold with sickening feelings
Ill make it a point to be as weak as possible
So you can swoop in and do your thing
But in reality I don't want to be saved

I just want to die
Is that so hard to believe
But I want you to be satisfied
So go on and save my life
Whatever makes you happy
(I just want to see you smile)

And I am sick and tired of being told
To be happy to be grateful that I'm still alive
To get right back up again like nothing happened
If I want to suffer then goddamnit let me suffer

Its my own way to live its my own way to sing
With a broken spine and a broken voice
I am never getting back up ever again
Please don't hate me for giving up

But if it makes you happy
Ill put on a good show
Ill wake up every morning
With a smile on my face
Acting like everything is okay
But knowing that nothing
Has ever been okay
So I'm sorry to say
That I'm giving up today

I'm giving up today
I hope that you find that okay
I'm giving up today
I'm sick and tired of being alive
I'm sick and tired of living a lie
I'm giving up today
IM GIVING UP TODAY!!!!!