relationships

Here's to hoping
for a one night stand
stuttering a line
About who I think I am


Sharing a secret
With a stranger
Dark and pure
Is it love
Or is it lust

Falling asleep
With a nobody
Just a mask
of a pretty face
Leading me to my doom
I whisper let me go
As you let me in
WAY TO FAR

You grab my hair
You reel me in
I CAN'T ESCAPE
I CAN'T ESCAPE

Here's to hoping
For lifetime stand
Stuttering I do's
its who I think I am

Standing next to you
So confident
I shake and shiver
So cowardly
and maybe im bitter
Resentful and mad
But that doesn't mean 
We have to be had

Until your life leaves you
(Ill be there)
Whether I like it or not
(Ill be there)
Whether you care or not
(Ill be there)
No matter the suffering

ILL BE THERE
UNTIL
THE LIFE
LEAVES
YOU
--------
note.
the entirety of this can be screamed and it still works.

Yr Smrk Rmnds Me Of The Time U Died.

I'm a quiet boy
In a ambulance
I'm a missing voice
I screamed my lungs out at ya

But I've got a heart
(I've got a heart)
its in my hands
and its on your grave 
how do you like that for a change


And the ghost of you
Never looked better
Than the disappointment
Marked by the face
I ripped the smile off your face
(SO SMIRK AGAIN)
against the wall
I took it all
Everything you ever had

And maybe I'm going to hell
But at least ill take you with me
Your the victim damn straight
Your the murderer
You made me take your life
(SO STOP SMIRKING)
In my face
I'm in your place
Following your footsteps

I'm a bad boy
In a ambulance
I'm a missing voice
I screamed my lungs out at ya

But I've got a heart
(I've got a heart)
its in my hands
and its on your grave
how do you like that for a change

This story began
When I met you
With a smirk
You got my attention
Wrapped up within a cold sweat
And this story ends
With my final salute to you
And all the shit
I put you through
this is my
final goodbye
I am so happy
I made you die


I'm a good boy
In a ambulance
I'm a missing voice
I screamed my lungs out at ya

But I've got a heart
(I've got a heart)
its in my hands
and its on your grave
how do you like that for a change 
how do you like that
I think I like that
I hope you like that
I hope you like you dead

Flatline.

I can walk the plank
Better than you
Sipping real drinks
Stronger than you
This is what I get
For letting you in


Tripping on words
Like heartfelt lungs
missing a beat
Before the flat line hits
Gotta get shocked
Gotta get shocked
Gotta get shocked
Gotta get shocked
Back to life
Please save me now
I'm fading (Fading)
FADING AWAY!

I can tie a rope
Tighter than you
I can fall down
Faster than you
And I don't think
I can get back up
Again

Tripping on words
Like heartfelt lungs
missing a beat
Before the flat line hits
Gotta get shocked
Gotta get shocked
Gotta get shocked
Gotta get shocked
Back to life
Please save me now
I'm fading (Fading)
FADING AWAY!

Until the day
I come to life
Ill stare hungrily
Into your eyes
I want you back
Inside my head
Where you belong
Not in my bed
With my shirt on
Wearing my disguise


Tripping on words
Like heartfelt lungs
missing a beat
Before the flat line hits
the flat line hits
THE FLAT LINE HITS!

Silver And Gold.

Golden eyes follow me
expecting me to be
Something great
But I can't stand the pressure

Golden lies follow me
Wherever I flea
I can't seen to escape them
And the pressure they relieve

But your stuck
In my head
Like a pop song
I want you out
But I can't seem to shake you
Out of my head
I don't want you
But secretly
I love the way you sound

Silver mirrors follow me
To show me who I am
And how ill never be
The number one you want of me
Will never come to be

Silver tongues follow me
trying to convince me to be
Someone more then me
Someone that I'm not

But your stuck
In my head
Like a pop song
I want you out 
But I can't seem to shake you
Out of my head
I don't want you
But secretly
I love the way you sound


Gold and silver
Like trial and error
Never seemed to fit with me
I'm more like a white
As close to nothing as can be

(GOLDEN EYES)
And I can't stop the pressure
(GOLDEN LIES)
But its the pressure they relieve
(SILVER MIRRORS)
And the number one you want of me
(SILVER TONGUES)
Is someone that I'm not
It will never come to be\

But your stuck in my head
like a pop song
And I don't want you out...

The Invisible Ones

I have so many games
But I don't have happiness
Its the way I am
when my shallow eyes zoom in

kick up your skirt
invisible girl
Momentary satisfaction
Is all i have
going for me
When the nights get lonely

I have so many friends
But I don't have happiness
Its the way I am
To always feel the way I should

strike a dying pose
invisible boy
and you'll feel like me
But let it be
Something different
Something not like me

I have so many faults
but I don't have feeling
its the way I am
Numb like a victim in a body bag

And if I ever feel
anything for anyone
Maybe ill talk my way to you
runaway crows mark my defeat
just let them lead the way

And happiness is overrated
When your falling behind in love
You can't make up what you truly feel
when you emerge from that lily pond
That lies between you and her
That lies between you and him
That lies between you and me

I have so many friends
But I can't find you
I'm sorry oh
I'm sorry ohh
For the invisible kids
Who can't seem to find their way home

Trapped

Staying in a run down loft
The air is cold the heat is off
Its been broken since the night
when I met you

You grabbed my arm
you looked at me
And whispered in my ear
"Please let me go"
"I don't want to be here"

Oh I wish you wouldn't cry
It makes everything
more difficult
I'd let you out
But I can't
I don't run this place
its out of my control

Staying in a run down loft
The shadows crawl the lights are off
They've been out since the night
after I found you

You shook my head
Stared in my eyes
You yelled at me
"please let me go"
"I don't want to be here"

Oh I wish you wouldn't cry
It makes everything
more difficult
I'd let you out
But I can't
I don't run this place
its out of my control

And there's the time
You broke down screaming
"PLEASE LET ME OUT"
"I DON'T WANT TO BE HERE"
You hated me
You wanted out
But I couldn't help you
I'm sorry you can blame me
ill just take the fall

Oh I wish you wouldn't cry
It makes everything
more difficult
I'd let you out
But I can't
I don't run this place
its out of my control

Seventeen

I'm seventeen
With a sore back
My bones ache
With the thought of waking up

My motivation is alive
But just barely
At least I have my passion
But even that is dying

Hey
I already know im screwed
I don't need to hear it from you
Just let me live my life
Its all I got going
for me

I'm seventeen
Without direction
I don't know where I'm going
But I like that

I've got some heartache
Holding me down
I can't seem to let go
yeah I know
I'm just a stupid kid

Hey
I already know im screwed
I don't need to hear it from you
Just let me live my life
Its all I got going
for me

I'm seventeen
without dreams
I've got no plans
no big rich schemes

I'm just a loser
But at least I haven't lost
The only game that matters
Its the one you think it is

Hey
I already know im screwed
I don't need to hear it from you
Just let me live my life
Its all I got going
for me

I'm seventeen
Wasting away
It makes me happy
Wasting time
I guess I'm what you'd call
A waste of space
A waste of life
But I'm only seventeen
I can correct this later

Hey
I already know im screwed
I don't need to hear it from you
Just let me live my life
Its all I got going
for me

Start A Clap

listen to the views
of the unheard
and you might hear
something new
something fresh

take the story
to the news stand
tell it first
before you see the red light
be your own green light

start a clap
at the moment
you've been waiting for
its the only chance you'll ever get
but, don't, halt
your life for it
cause sometimes
you gotta make it happen

listen to the views
of the liar politicians
and you might get confused
but taking your anger out like lit fuse
only serves to burn you out faster

take the story
write it out
make it yours
scream it out
let the world know
your, out, there

start a clap
at the moment
you've been waiting for
its the only chance you'll ever get
but, don't, halt
your life for it
cause sometimes
you gotta make it happen

start a clap
at the moment
you've been waiting for
its the only chance you'll ever get
but, don't, halt
your life for it

cause sometimes
you gotta make it happen
you gotta make it happen

Sun Bright

My life is a little bit like nihilism
I've given in-to the spectacle
Yeah my life doesn't have a point
Cause I'm never gonna be some one
Let alone somebody

there's a hurt in the back of my mind
It says don't try
just give up
there's no reason to be alive
when alive
always finds a new way
To be a lie


and I'm nostalgic for the darker days
When numbness existed as a crutch
Now life is a flight of depression
flying above and beyond
The nights where it was so common
To wake up in fright while hating life

My life is a little bit like nihilism
I've given in-to the spectacle
Yeah my life doesn't have a point
Cause I'm never gonna be some one
Let alone somebody

And the story of the year 
Is how we can hold on
to something so pointless
Like manic depression
When it bites you on the lip
You know you're hooked forever

Nihilism is my comfort zone
knowing nothing matters
Allows me to take solace in my failures
But there's a point says the existentialist
you make your own reason to go on
While you define who you really are
Now I've been defined by a razorblade
By tears and pills and little black notebooks
But one day
I think ill define myself
With a smile
With a light shining so bright
yeah ill define myself
With a smile
With a light shining so bright
just because I can
Not because I want to no
As chaos makes the world go 'round
And for once
I just want to be apart
of something more than I will ever be

My life is a little bit like nihilism
I've given in-to the spectacle
Yeah my life doesn't have a point
Cause I'm never gonna be some one
Let alone somebody
but someday
ill define myself
With a smile
With a light
shining so bright
Yeah ill define myself
With a smile
With a light
shining so bright
Shining so bright
So bright
let's define ourselves
With a smile and a light that shines brighter
than the brightest sun

Winter Run

I'm trying
Trying
To get a hold of you
My phone is dead
And the interweb is down
Goddamn it the winter sucks

I take a ride on my bike
5 miles to your house
Its freezing cold
but my car broke down
And all my friends suck
did you hear that?
Yeah you all fucking suck

My bike chain snapped
half way there
And I couldn't decide
If I should turn back or not
oh well I guess its time to run
I'm flipping tired
but the situations dire
I guess I'm just a good boyfriend

I'm trying
Yeah I'm Trying
To get a hold of you
My phone is dead
And the interweb is down
Goddamn it the winter sucks

A mile away
I trip and fall
On some black ice
Into a snow bank
Yeah my life sucks

I really need to get to you
So I get up
and bolt faster then the flash
Its fucking cold
but my heart is warming up
With the thought of you
I ignore the frost bite
On my left ear

I'm trying
Yeah I'm Trying
To get a hold of you
My phone is dead
And the interweb is down
Goddamn it the winter sucks

I'm at your house
I call your name
You look out the window
There's a smile on your face
I yell to you
I think we should break up
There's a tear in your eye
But your laughing now
Cause I'm the one that's dead

I'm trying
Yeah I'm Trying
To get a hold of you
My phone is dead
And the interweb is down
Goddamn it the winter sucks

That's what I get
For being a shitty boyfriend.

Carousel

I'm taking a break
From the younger days
Where everything
and anything
Was taken close to
my heart

use to be
A battlefield
With word grenades
and razor blade
always coming down
on me

But for now ill play
This Carousel game
Where everybody
And anybody
Goes everywhere
And no where
So I can keep my
Head on straight
And everything will be okay
I swear I will walk away
walk away, away from this
Gotta get away from this

I'm taking a start
To stop this ride
Its boring and unfruitful
Where am I without sorrow
on this Carousel ride
Where everybody
And anybody
Goes everywhere
And no where
So I can keep my
Head on straight
And everything will be okay
I swear I will walk away
Walk away, away from this
Gotta get away from this

Punching Bag

I don't understand
Why everyone comes to me
with their problems
Its not like I don't have my own

now don't get me wrong
i don't mind
Helping out a friend
But its four in the morning
And I just want to be left alone

Just because I have experience
Doesn't mean I can help
I'm not a saint with good advice
- spoken -
I mean come on look at me
I used to hurt myself

Well fuck that noise
I'm better now
Ill help you too
But let me say
What's in my mind
Cause I might tell you
What you don't
want to hear

now don't get me wrong
i don't mind
Helping out a friend
But its four in the morning
I just want to be left alone

Well maybe ill try to help
But I don't see why you'd ask me
Its not like I volunteered
well whatever I hope I can be of some use
As your verbal punching bag
But when its four in the morning
Leave me the fuck alone

Sleepless Nights

Stay up
later each night
can't sleep
My eyes hate me
With every passing hour
There's only so much
the sky can entertain

I try to find something new to do
In place of the sleep
Laid down before me
I start writing songs for you
But you don't care
You never cared much for me
And all the words I string together
Even if they're all for you

Wake up
later every day
Mid day
Its three o'clock
And I'm still in bed
What's wrong with me?
 I can't seem to stay healthy
my health is fading but so are you

you came and went and came again
But guess what fuck you
Stop messing with my life
I don't want to deal with you

But you don't care
You never cared much for me
And all the words I string together
Even if they're all about you

Wake up
(sleepless nights)
Can't sleep
(mind is racing)
Mid day
(sun is setting)
Stay up
(writing song)
Wake up
(sleepless nights)
Can't sleep
(mind is racing)
Mid day
(sun is setting)
Stay up all night
writing songs about you

Signing Off, I'm Sorry.

Stakes through my eyes 
I can't see
Stapled shut doors
locked for me 
I can't get in 
I can't get inside 
 
start from finish 
There's an end to this 
Turn off the lights 
to a dark abyss 
I can't get out 
I can't get out
of here.
 
I've got an apology for two 
This is a lie from me to you 
Signing off I'm done with this
turn the tables that I'm lost within 
I've forgotten just what I've meant 
By those words I said 
Words I said 
 
I can't feel 
what its like to be me
Its not fair 
To be a whiner like me 
I'm not sure 
that Ill ever recover 
Ever recover
I feel like
another modern myth
 
I've lost sight of who I am
To anxious to see
who I'm meant to be
Its a tragedy
So shame on me 
Whoever that is
Whoever I am 
 
I've got an apology for two 
This is a lie from me to you 
Signing off I'm done with this
turn the tables that I'm lost within 
I've forgotten just what I've meant 
By those words I said 
Words I said 
I said 
Signing off I'm done with this

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i love this one.

no lie.

I Never Knew There Was A New Way To Go When Walking Backwards.

I swear she never meant a thing to me 
Of course she meant everything to me 
But I couldn't tell you even if I tried 
Some times life sucks even when you try 
 
Stories told of a new way
Its one that I never learned
Through relationships
that always failed
They tell me To live and let live 
but I say to Live life but die young 
 
I've been with many women 
but ive never been with you 
looking at you from a far 
Everybody I've met knows your name
but they never know you 
God I wish I could love you 
 
Stories told of a new way
Its one that I never learned
Through relationships that always failed
They tell me 
To live and let live 
but I say 
Live life and die young 
Yeah live live just to die young.
I want to die young
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i like.

but i might need to make it longer.

Graduation.

Cap and gown

Measurements 
Five feet ten
Head to toe 
 
There's no lies 
Like an alabi 
cover me
I'm Getting out
Before it gets here 
gets here
Graduation 
sorry but its not my thing 
 
names called 
have to stand 
Up and start 
shaking hands  

I've got a dress 
Starting today 
Its the beginning
of the end
Of the end

For me and
you are just 
sitting alone 
Watching idle 
as I pass by 
Thanks for giving
up my life 
Before I even knew 
That I had a chance 
had a chance

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too short, inspired while i was at school. 

i dislike it.

Time Fixes.

I set my broken watch an hour late 
And no it doesn't even match the date 
So today is yesterday as it is tomorrow 
 
Time keeps spinning 
Time keeps flowing 
On and on Its just another story
that doesn't end with you or me 
No no 
 
And I'm sick 
And I'm sad 
And I'm tired and loney 
But none of this matters 
With you up on me
 
And I'm mad
And I'm hurt
And life is bleak and gloomy 
so I take another pill 
And I call you honey bear 
 
But,
Time keeps spinning 
Time keeps flowing 
On and on Its just another story
that doesn't end with you or me 
Yeah yeah 
 
And when I need to start up again 
I set my broken watch an hour late 
And no it doesn't even match the date 
So today is yesterday as it is tomorrow 

-----------

it's okay

i just really like the change of rhythm in the vocals.

(at least in my head) 

Poisoned Life

I'm sorry its my fault
That you're hurting now
I'm sorry its my fault
That I'm dying now
I think I'm to blame
I think I'm the same
As you,
As you
 
Our lives are almost up and 
The last words on my lips are
"please let me tell you now
I wish that I could hold you now
I wish that I could see you now
I wish that I could be you now"
But its too late,
Too late
 
When your in my head 
your in my bed 
I'm forgetting that 
I keep thinking that maybe
Maybe this is all to easy
Maybe this is all unfair
To you,
To you 
 
This is a note
To myself 
Starting off with
I'm sorry, 
But I can't live
Like this
 
I'm sick it hurts
Like you've poisoned me 
I'm a dying breed 
Please let this be 
The last time I breathe
The last time I see 
See you,
See me
 
This is a note
To myself 
Starting off with
I'm sorry, 
But I can't live
Like this
 
This is a note
To myself 
Starting off with
I'm sorry, 
But I can't live
Like this
 
I'm sorry, 
But I can't live
Like this
 
I'm sorry, 
But I can't live
Like this
 
I'm sorry, 
But I can't live
Like this
 
I'm sorry, 
But I can't live
Like this
 
I'M SORRY
BUT I CAN'T LIVE 
LIKE THIS....

This is a note
To myself 

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wrote this on the fly.

i like. 

On and Off

Tell all my friends
I said goodbe
On the twenty-first
It's a choice of mine

I can't go on
I can't get off
Of this path of mine

In one more week
I'm a suicide
Does this disturb you
Is this not right?


I can't go on
I can't get off
Think this is right

My mind is set
Your body's wet
Are you excited?
Are you afraid?


I can't go on
I can't get off
When i'm feeling this afraid

So, Tell all my friends
I said goodbe
On the twenty-first
It's a choice of mine

In The Name Of

I'm gonna slit my throat
In the name of love
With a kitchen knife
That's soaked in your blood

I'm gonna die today
Its a victory
For a coward
Who always runs away

And you expect me to care
About all the little things
But i'm giving up
This sunday morning
But i swear
This isn't giving up on you
It's giving up on me

I'm gonna cut myself
In the name of God
With a plastic knife
Soaked in chemicals

I'm gonna hang myself
It's my closing statement
Its all i have left to prove
To no one but myself

And you expect me to care
About all the little things
But i'm giving up
This sunday morning
But i swear
This isn't giving up on me
It's giving up on you

Or maybe i'm just taking you down
Maybe i'm just taking myself down
Cause what i can't give up
I just take down.

-----------------
i wrote this on a night without sleep.

a mindset of fear.

can't you see i'm bleeding lies
i see you through these bloodshot eyes
i haven't slept for days on end
they put me on pills like ambien
afraid of how much i hurt inside
i wander around deaf and blind
i'm in so much pain, i'm at my end
i'm popping pills like vicodin
----
not done yet.
----
just wrote it, works with the guitar i just laid down.

Forest Of No Return.

Please help me now i am dying.


----
repeated several times throughout the song.
its recorded. i love it.
kyle loves it.
awesome possum.

Royalty.

Where's your sense of compassion
Where's your need of loyalty
These are just suggestions.
To help quell your royalty.

So let me tell you now
I don't think
That your life is
Worth living
Until you fix the
Way you act
You better cure yourself in time

Where's your sense of compassion
Where's your need of loyalty
These are just suggestions.
To help quell your royalty.

HEY GIRL - yelled
You better
open your eyes
Cause your head
is filled with lies
With all the ways
That your parents
taught you
Won't you please
Just wake up

Where's your sense of compassion
Where's your need of loyalty
These are just suggestions.
To help quell your royalty.

-------
eh.
not my favorite.
not from the heart.

I am Me,

Full of contradictions
I SLIT MY WRISTS
But I swear
IM NOT ONE OF THEM

I am who I am
A BLACK HOLE SUN
I'm never happy
But at least I SMILE

I am I am
My own PERSON
I am I am
My own SICKNESS
I am I am
my own HEART
I am I am
my own DEFECTS
And I might be dark
But I have a light
AND WHEN THE FIRE
GETS OUT OF CONTROL
ILL DOUSE IT OUT
WITH MY OWN BLOOD!

I enjoy the dark romantic
Side of life...

The burn of cigarettes
The coughing up of blood
A dance with a razor
The purging of my insides

BUT I SWEAR TO GOD
I'm not a stereotype
I'm just another boy
SO LEAVE ME ALONE
AND LET ME BE ME
For the last half
of my life

----
i enjoy.
it is dark.
but oh well.
i am too.
might need to be longer though

Feeling Blue?

I want to be the beat
That makes your heart stop
I want to be the one
That turns you off

Its just another way for me to say
I don't want you to feel blue
No, I don't want you to feel at all

I want to be the last stop
Of your dying heart beat
I just want to be free
Free of you and me

Its just another way for me to say
I don't want you to feel blue
No, I don't want you to feel at all

AND I DON'T WANT
YOU TO FEEL
IN THE WAY
WHERE YOU ARE BURIED
SIX FEET
UNDERGROUND

Its just another way for me to say
I don't want you to feel blue
No, I don't want you to feel at all.

----
eh
needs to be longer.

Come Back?

I miss you
How could you have disappeared
I have been crying my days away
I want you back by my side
I know this just may be my fault
But I am hoping you are okay
Without you the million cuts
That we've been through
Have been hurting me
And I'm sorry to say but
I'm hurting without you
Best friends until the end
I want you in my life
To help me up when I fall
My best friend I miss you

------
sad song.
actually recorded and not bad.

Books And Songs

hey!
I hate my life today
Same as any other day
Hey!
I love my life today
Same as any other day

My blood is tearing me to pieces
As my heart lays me to rest
So Beat me a little faster
Cause my hearts not beating in my chest
Whoa-oo-o
Whoa-oo-o

Hey!
I hate my life today
Same as any other day
Hey!
I love my life today
Same as any other day

And the words that I remember
Calling from your lips
Have brought about the darker side
Of animals and men

So like nineteen eighty four
This is the end of freedom
Like in a catch 22
I don't know what to do
No I don't know what to do

Hey!
I hate my life today
Same as any other day
Hey!
I love my life today
Same as any other day

-------
i enjoyed my literary references.
i need more of those.
also.
this needs to be longer.

Sleepy Silhouette

My eyes are bleeding shut
My body is restless
and over tired
My insides are decaying
And In pain

My mind can't think
Of the words to put in a song
So I'm sorry I rambled
But this is all I got

I miss you
Just so I can have you
I love you
Just so I can feel

And I need you by my side
So I can forget my pain
And I need you by my side
Cause I'm a little bit insane

(where are you)
I'm a little to fucked up now
(where are you)
I'm a little to far
gone

(I'm with you)
I don't know where I am
(I'm with you)
I don't know where you
are

I miss you
Just so I can have you
I love you
Just so I can feel

My thoughts are pouring out
A dangerous endeavor
To know what I think
To know what I know

I'm throwing up my words
I'm sweating out my nerves
I'm wasting away
Not sleeping to say goodbye

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i like this one.
and.
i was tired.

Fish

I'm a small fish
Not knowing where I want to go
Just going where I'm told
wanting to get away
From family and friends
I want to live life
That's forever worth remembering

I'm a small fish
But not for much longer
Cause I'm older now
I'm now bigger now
I've got stories of a life
You never thought I lived
And by the time I lay my eyes to rest...
I'll be a big fish

I'm a big fish
No where else I want to go
Nothing else I want to do
Then say goodbye to all the ones I love
When my day has finally come
I hope I finally get some rest
I hope its at the place
where I come from
Yeah, I'm a big fish
Swimming back to relive my dreams

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not done.
or maybe it is?
oh well. i like though.

Rainbows

All the colors of the rainbow blooming
All the colors of the rainbow shining
All the colors of the rainbow melting
All the colors of the rainbow fading
There's no other thing I want see
There's no other person I want to be
Than another person to lose his sanity

And all the stars
And drops of rain
Can't be seen
Or be felt
When I'm
Under my umbrella
I am safe

Nothing in the sky
Will come my way
The daggers underneath
Have gone away
Now and then
The rainbows come my way

The colors of the rainbow
Come my way
Red and green
Surround by a shade of grey
Yellow and orange
The warmest of the group
Indigo and violet
And their cousin blue

Ohh oh
The rainbows
They come my way

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idk if its long enough.
but it was so hard to make the color of the rainbows rhyme.
also i do like alot.

The Overcast Kid.

One more kiss for the overcast kid
Cause he can't get off himself
And when you walk around this way
He gets off on you
Yeah, he gets off on you
Yeah!

A little more tongue and the overcast kid
Will be wrapped within your web
But don't let him fool you
Cause that's where he wants to be
Yeah, where he wants to be
Yeah!

The overcast kid is
a little depressed
He doesn't know how to live
Without a girl by his side
He's a little depressed

The overcast kid is
On the rise
He is over the horizon
With a girl by his side
He is on the rise
Yeah!

One more fuck for the overcast kid
Cause he can't fuck himself
And when you go down on him
He's loving every second
Yeah, loving every second
Yeah!

-song slows down-
One more break-up for the overcast kid
And he's taking it pretty hard
He hates living once again
he hates every second
Yeah, he hates every second...

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honestly my favorite song i have ever written.
and im currently writing a sequel.

We Live On

I can't regret anything
That begins or ends with you
Its something
that my mind and heart
Does for you

No guilty thoughts
No looking back
Caus' things are looking up
And All I have to say is...

You make me weak
You make me hurt
But all in all
You're the one I want
(The one I want)

Forget the pain
Forget the sorrow
It hurts so much
But ill live tomorrow

A roller coaster
Has ups and downs
But that doesn't mean
You can't enjoy it

Take care
Take care
You know what its like
one, two, three, four
there's nothing left for us to fear
I'd love for you to stay near
But you can go if you need
Two more lines is all I want

You make me weak
You make me hurt
But all in all
You're the one I want
(The one I want)

Forget the pain
Forget the sorrow
It hurts so much
But ill live tomorrow

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i think i like it?
nothing else to say.

Sky.

THE RAIN IS FALLING!
AND IM NOT WET!
THE SKY IS FALLING!!
AND IM NOT DEAD YET!!!!

THE RAIN IS FALLING!
AND WE'RE NOT WET!
THE SKY IS FALLING!!
AND WE'RE NOT DEAD YET!!!!

the rain is falling
The sky is falling
The rain is falling!
The sky is falling!
The rain is falling!!
The sky is falling!!
AND WE'RE NOT DEAD YET!!!!
IM NOT DEAD YET!!!!
WE'RE NOT DEAD YET!!!!
IM NOT DEAD YET!!!!
YOUR NOT DEAD YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!


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Token pointless fast and hard punk song
(yet its really amazing)
honestly.
this is the best song ever made.
;)

Reset.

Waking up again to hit the reset
Starting over just to find out that
None of that was ever meant to happen
And ya I guess its kind of depressing
But I think we'll save that for the ending

As I'm waiting for the time of life
That's about to be spoken
From a familiar stranger
Staring at her wrist
Its uncovered
for the first time in months

And I question how she's doing
As a start to a new beginning
She's say she's doing good
Ya, she's doing good

And I'm hoping that things
will stay this way
Caus I don't want to see
her fade away
Loneliness only hurts when
you've never been alone
Ohhh oh she's never been alone
And I've never left her side
I've never left her

Alone again as time is reversing
Man it sucks to remember
Everything I never ended up doing
ONCE MORE LET'S TRY AGAIN

Waking up again to hit the reset
Starting over just to find out that
None of that was ever meant to happen
And ya I guess its kind of depressing
But I think we'll save that for the ending...

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i absolutely love this one.
one of my favorites i have ever written.

Realization.

This sadness
breaks away
At the sound of your voice
I smile and realize
I just might be okay

Following through
A childhood dream
Your the one I want
The one I need
And I won't
let another fear
Take control
of my heart

Is it safe for me to say?
That I think our souls are intertwined
I would be nothing without you

Is it safe for me to say?
That I'm anxious for the coming future
But not as long as you're by my side

Love might not be
Strong enough
To express
How I feel
Its the truth
Riddled in my eyes
And I think
I can finally see

This sadness
breaks away
At the sound of your voice
I smile and realize
I just might be okay

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eh.

Open Your Pages.

There's a light at the end of this tunnel
And I'm starting to feel a bit... lost
I'm not sure where I am going
But ill tell you when I am there

Things are starting to seem difficult
But I think that's why you are here

I don't want to be without you
You're the strength in my heart forever
Its a curse that I have been blessed with
A form of darkness never fading to black

And There's a light at the end of this tunnel
And I'm starting to feel a bit... lost
I'm not sure where I am going
But ill tell you when I am there

It seems like this ride is coming to its end
And it'll be hard to move on without you
But just so you know that ill be truthful
You were the best and the worse of my life

So its time for us to say our goodbyes
Although I promise you it won't be forever
Because forever is just in a blink of an eye
And I'm scared you will die inside...

I'm opening the pages to my new beginning
And it starts off with this tragic end

And There's a light at the end of this tunnel
And I'm starting to feel a bit... lost
I'm not sure where I am going
But ill tell you when I am there
Ill tell you when I am there...

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i like.

TANGO TWO.

can't you see that i'm sick of shit
you look at me like i'm a problem to fix
you'll regret the day when i say that
i'm ready to kill
IM READY TO KILL!

BREAKDOWN!!
in front of all the POISONOUS GIRLS
who you blame the problems with words
to light to see another day undiscovered
BY TRICKS AND TREATS i guess its time to DIE!!
MY LIE TRY DIEing for some other than you
i'm sorry to tell you but i'm sick of this shit
IM SICK OF THIS SHIT

(whoa oh whoa oh)
where do you begin
where do i end
i'm so sorry for messing us up
FOR FUCKING US UP
i guess the new plan
is just ONE WEEK ONLY
for the both of us
it makes ME SICK
that ill only get you
ON YOUR DYING DAY

and now i'm ready to BREAKdown
without the slightest sound
it takes a REAL man to COME around
without any hesitation
ill learn it like a lesson
and take it to heart
as the fire TARES us apart
a part of you is in me forever
ill never FORGET YOU
AS IT TAKES TWO
to tango...


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Anything capitalized is screaming or yelling.
also. i love this.
and it's randomness.

A Boy.

I drink to much coca cola my stomachs
Already gone
My bodys pushed to the limits and my minds
In hell
It changes everytime that I open
My mouth
Yet I start a riot in my friendship circle
every week
But still the friends that matter find there way back
To me
Yeah yeah

I don't know
What's fucking wrong with me
And I can't see
What's inside of me
And I just hope
You'll be here to save me
from myself

The watching public scares the hell
out of me
Their lookin in from the outside like its a
big Fuckin deal
But I'm just a kid from new hampshire
Out of his mind
I never knew you had to be crazy to
Walk this line
Until I stood up one day and decided
Fuck this shit
Yeah yeah

I got nothing to live for
suicides always an option
I never consented to
And loves keepin me goin
But its of the saddest kind
Yeah its been unrequited
Since the beginning of time
Oh well to bad
its not like I'm goin anywhere
I'm just too messed up
To even know that I'm here
Yeah yeah

I don't know
What's fucking wrong with me
And I can't see
What's inside of me
And I just hope
You'll be here to save me
From myself

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i happen to love this one.
at least the beginning.
it might need to be fixed.
but it's basically me.

Locket.

I woke up
With a chain around my neck
And a locket against my throat
inside it said

"I used to love you
Now I don't
You always made me sad
And i hope you die
You were such a waste of time"

Now I hope you regret
Ever little word you said
And all the lies you shared
To me
(TO ME)

Ill make sure you do
Just look out for the right signs
And ill be here waiting
To hit you with the left
(THE LEFT)

And you woke up
With a chain around your neck
And a locket against your throat
Inside it said

"I used to love you
Now I don't
You always made me sad
And i hope you die
You were such a waste of time"

Payback is a whore
And everybody gets it
Including you and me
But that's to bad
(TO BAD)

Cause you'll get what you deserve
When that worm is crawling up your chest
(YOUR CHEST)

And I woke up..
With a chain around my neck..
And a locket against my throat..
That said...

"I used to love you
but now your dead..."

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i enjoy this one alot.
i'm kinda want to mess with it though.

I said You said.

One day I said to you
Your so happy
And Your so sappy
Can't you see
your running circles
Around all the little problems
And little choices
that you make everyday

And you said to me
Well that may be
But don't you see
At least I'm not like you
Whose always blue
And always true
To every girl
Who lies in your world

And you said to me
Im so happy
And I'm so sappy
Can't you see
your running circles
Around all the little problems
And little choices
that you make everyday

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i dont think this is done.
i will finish it eventually.
also i like.

Sucubus Kiss.

My friend!
Where have you gone?
Without you!
Where do I belong?

Don't hate me for
my mistakes
Hate me for the love
I can't create
Its just a sickness
Burning from
what's left of your kiss

Your passionate kiss!
Sucked out my soul!
And crushed any last hope!
I ever had in finding solace in another!
I swear I loved you!
I just couldn't show you!
And when I die!
I hope you Cry!

Don't hate me for
my mistakes
Hate me for the love
I can't create
Its just a sickness
Burning from
what's left of your kiss

Why did you leave me?!
Was I not worth it?!
I guess it doesn't fucking matter now!
Because I'm burning up fast!
In a special place in hell!
For suicides and liars!
Ill tell you now!
Fuck you and good bye!

Don't hate me for
my mistakes
Hate me for the love
I can't create
Its just a sickness
Burning from
what's left of your kiss
what's left of your kiss!
Is a miss!

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I think.
i just wanted to yell.
:)
but i do enjoy some of the lyrics.

Best Friends Die Together.

Our lives are forfeit
when we find ourselves
When we lose something precious
We cease to exist
To all of our friends
We are at our end

When one of us dies
Both of our lives end
Its the price we pay
For being best friends

I can't stand to
see you angry
will you forgive me
For always being
Sad

I wish I could be there for you
More then I think I can
I know I'm a bad friend
Its so nice of you to pretend
That you think I'm priceless
But I'm so sorry
I'm just not worth it

When one of us dies
Both of our lives end
Its the price we pay
For being best friends

I love you
So fucking much
Because of
Such and such
I don't have a reason
I can't even begin
To tell you why your
my best friend
I guess its been lost
Such a simple cost
To pay

When one of us dies
Both of our lives end
Its the price we pay
For being best friends

----
it's alright.
idk.

Suicidal Quandries.

I hate myself
So you don't have to
Its okay
I'm not ashamed
No shame
in being a martyr
No shame
For myself
I just care
for everything
But myself
And i can't seem
to hate enough

Its a sign of warning
When all your friends
start freaking out
And you can't help but notice
all the panic in the air
Being suicidal isn't fair

Jesus doesn't want you
Your friends are afraid of you
You've got nowhere to go
So you play doctor with a knife
And when it doesn't turn out right
Your dragged straight into a hospital
The devil shreads on his little fiddle
And you narrowly escape your own demise
This is so fucked up!

Dying is supposed to be a choice
One decided in a compromise
Between yourself and your mind
Why should you be patronized
For taking your own life

Its a sign of warning
When all your friends
start freaking out
And you can't help but notice
all the panic in the air
Being suicidal isn't fair

I can't imagine
The thoughts of others
When I'm covered in blood
Can you imagine
The look in their eyes...

I can't imagine
What others think
When they see you and me
Splashed with blood
Lying on ground...

Can you imagine
What everyone will think
When they find you dead
For the last time...

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it's ok.
i dont know how i would turn it into a real song though.
not 100% sure how to explain what i was trying to do with this either...
oh! and more fading out.

Freedom Cry.

Rewind
Take the time
Find out when you
Really died.

Suffocate
Used as bait
Blackened by an
Unknown fate

Shackles bind
Walk the line
Captured for a
Pointless crime

Sleeping forever
(Never felt so good)
When being awake
Meant eyes filled with horror
Shaken to the core
Visions we abhor
Lying dead for war.

- spoken -
Gamble to lose!
Why wage more
When you can wage war!
- spoken -
Gamble to win!
Why bet money
When you can bet others!
- spoken -
Let it be known!
Lives are free!
Nurtured drones!
Coming for me
And you.
And you!
And you!!
AND YOU!!!

AHHH

We all deserve to die
With our freedom cry
Putting forth our resignations
Bleeding for our dying nation

And We all deserve to die
With our freedom cry
Putting forth our resignations
Bleeding for our dying nation

*fades out with marching drum line beat*

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fading out again.
i like this one alot.
it's the only slightly political thing i've written that is not terrible.

Street Lights

You have my back
Up against the wall
Its true
And I can't seem to say
To you
I am free

And it takes some time
To find
the line
That I've seemed
To cross tonight
I love you

Stop at the red light
Green doesn't mean go
When you have a broken heart
Everything means no
My deadly art
Of taking back words
That you once said to me
This will be
My fucking fatality.

I hear them knocking on
The door now
And its to late
To find the cost
Of loving

I seem to of broken
My creed with my friends
When I let you in
My life


Stop at the red light
Green doesn't mean go
When you have a broken heart
Everything means no
My deadly art
Of taking back words
That you once said to me
This will be
My fucking fatality.

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another song that i have recorded.
actually first song i ever sat down and made with my guitar.
its alright.
might change it around.
i.e take out the curses.

Broken Boquets.

I have been so fucking depressed lately
I think you should hate me
I want to die
No goodbyes

I'm a broken record
Giving another lecture
On who I used to be
An older version of me

And I believe
I need to receive
A post card from my past
Dead at last

I can't stand being happy
this song could be a little bit sappy
But
Happiness is so hard to fine these days
And they say its just a phase
Just a phase

I can't stand being happy
this song could be a little bit sappy
But
Happiness is so hard to fine these days
And they say its just a phase
Just a phase
Of broken bouquets.

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i like.
but it needs to be longer in my opinion.

Wounded Canopys.

When broken in half
Life never seems to pass
The canopy of its wounded
To the sky so blue
And so happy

And we'll never learn to fly
When we're to afraid to jump
Take my hand and we'll soar
To the top of the sky

Afraid of the hearts
covered up songs
Riddled in truths and facts
Ohhohh

I've never been proud
Of how easy I seem to be
Yeah
I seem to be so easy
Yeah

Take my hand
and we'll fall apart
Its the fate
Of a broken heart.

Its not like its hard for me to love
Its just to damn easy to fall at all
Falling is what I do

Yet I've never been proud
Of how easy I seem to be
Yeah
I seem to be so easy
Yeah
Yeah..

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i wrote this because i recorded it.
it was ok.
i might hate it but idk.

Tonight They Miss You.

When you ask what happened
To me
I guess my silent reply
Will be
That I never got..
your time..

I wanted to say
That i missed you
(Tonight)
But the blood on the ground
Is hugging me cold
And it seems
I won't see you again
(tonight)

I guess in the end
It just takes one to die
Maybe a mistake
But at least for now
I've run away from me

And Just in case you care
I want you to know
That it didn't hurt at all
Unless you count your neglect
All that was left was me...

wanting to say
That i missed you
(Tonight)
But the blood on the ground
Is hugging me cold
And it seems
I won't see you again
(tonight)

And from now on
You and me
Will never be together
(yet we'll never be a part)

And I know
You will never be okay
From now on

And you have me
to thank
(For that)
And you have me
To thank
(For that)


I just wanted to say
That i missed you
(Tonight)
But the blood on the ground
Is hugging me cold
And it seems
I won't see you again
(tonight)

Tonight
All I wanted to say was that I missed you...

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i like this one.
double meaning at one point.
fading out again.

Love Your Love.

this is a simple song
About how belated
My message has been
Its been forever
But I want you to know
We will never end

Oooh oooh
If you have ever been scared
That I didn't care
Let's make those fears
Disappear with these words

Ill care till the end
And I meant forever
No matter the days
Our nights will never stay the same
They'll never stay the sameeee

Hey didn't you know
That my love
isn't for show
This may sound strange to hear
But I want you to know
That I love you sooo

Oooh oooh
If you have ever been scared
That I didn't care
Let's make those fears
Disappear with these words

I have always cared
And I'm here to show you
That I will never leave
Ooohh
I will never leave
And this might be to late
But our time will never fade
I love our love
Yeahh
I love our love

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i dont know how i currently feel about this one.

Former Friends.

We used to be best friends
The love of our own lives
But now childhood dreams die
Yes they seem to always die
So from now on we're enemies
Did you hear we're in a bitter rivalry

I hope you die
I hope I'm the one to end your life
Cause you never stood a chance
Against a hell seeking force of wrath like me
Yeah you never truly understood me
And now your gonna pay
Yeah bitch your gonna pay

You broke my heart
But I don't give a damn
No time to be sad
When your hating
A twisted love sick bitch
DID YOU HEAR??
Stop chasing what you never wanted
Love just isn't for you

I'm not out for revenge
I'm just out for justice
I'm just bleeding hate
When your bleeding lies
Its always fun to see you cry
But I bet it will be better to see you die

I hope you die
I hope I'm the one to end your life
Cause you never stood a chance
Against a hell seeking force of wrath like me
Yeah you never truly understood me
And now your gonna pay
Yeah bitch your gonna pay

Lastly
But not lastly
I want to wish you well
Lastly
But not lastly
I hope you go to hell

Lastly
But not lastly
I hope your filled with sorrow
Lastly
But not lastly
I hope your not here tomorrow

We used to be best friends
The love of our own lives
But now childhood dreams die
Yes they seem to always die
So from now on we're enemies
Did you hear...
We're in a bitter rivalry...

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i dont hate it at all.
i kinda like it.
but idk?
hmmm.
again with the fading out.

The Sickness Inside.

The subject of my life
Has always been
Up and down
back and forth
And I know
I could never be stable
(EVEN IF I TRIED)

I love the sickness
(I LOATHE MYSELF)
Only to discover
(I AM THE SICKNESS INSIDE)
There's no way around it
I was born to....
(DIE!!)

And I'm not afraid to cry...
I said...
I'm to afraid to hide...
I said
I'm not afraid to bide my time
(AND I SAID!)
(IM NOT AFRAID TO)
(DIE!!!)

The fall of me
From start to end
Has already began
And its such a sin
To see me breathe
Another breath
Of broken air
Left behind
From a world unfair
Leave me be
I've given up
Goodnight
Its time to say...
Goodbye..

----
eh.
i want to make it longer.

Just the girl.

Your just a girl
At least that's what I say to myself
Your just a girl
That's what I tell myself
Just a girl
That makes my world

Ahhhhhh
I really can't explain
What it is I'm feeling
But ill run up and down the stairs
To heaven and hell
And sacrifice myself
Just for you

And I might never get the chance
To show you what I mean
Cause your to busy
with the fire under your jeans
And you'll never know
What you really mean to me.
No you'll never really know
What love is to me.

Your just a girl
At least that's what I say to myself
Your just a girl
That's just what I tell myself
Just a girl
That makes my world

Just a girl
Just a girl!

Just the girl
Just the girl!

The only girl
The only girl!

Just a girl!
Just the girl!
The only girl!

AHHHHHHHOOOOOOO!!!

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eh.
i think the point was to attempt to make a song that is carried by as few lyrics as possible.
i might want to fix it up though.

Bloody Rose.

My heart hurts
and I'm on fire
Dripping tears
As cold as ice
my dead soul
Finally takes its toll

As I
Hide my face in shame
Scared of seeing the rejection
in your eyes
Why could you never?
(Accept me!)

I thought you'd change
But you never did
I thought you wouldn't
EVER WALK AWAY

I thought you'd change
But you never did
I thought you wouldn't
Ever walk away...
On me....

I am not alive
Broken
I have died
Are you really my friend
Though you left me in the end
This bloody rose tragedy
You could have saved me.

This bloody rose tragedy
You could have saved me...
(AND NOW IM GONE)
And now I'm gone....

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i really dont mind this one.
but i want to fix it up. alot.

Hearts Need Breaks Too.

I keep my heart at arms length
For it never does me any good
To feel emotions like I breathe

Tripping up and down how I feel
No longer seems to have appeal
I want to stop this falling forever (ever)
Cause I only seem to fall for you

As the seasons change
Fading into winter
Your life is maimed
And my heart is your splinter

Taking into account this fact
My heart is bleeding black
I'd have to say love is poison
So Ill give you this frozen rose and
My heart will see you next season

When the time is right
I might push again
To be more then a friend
But for now
My hearts on vacation

As the seasons change
Fading into winter
Your life is maimed
And my heart is your splinter
...my heart is your splinter...

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i like this one tooooo.
also.
i think i am more fond of fading out with a song than with just ending it.

A Cat With Nine Lives Can Die More Than Once.

I blame myself
For what you've done
I know I shouldn't
But...

Nothing has ever felt so right
Blaming myself for everything in my life
I'm a shot in the dark
An emotional wall in the park.
Ill sow my mouth shut
Just so I don't have to tell you why
Part of me is dying every night

My broken past.
Speaks for itself
And it sucks so much
To always have an excuse

Take one!
I'm crying all the time.
Take two!
I'm bleeding all the time.
Take three!
(IM DYING ALL THE TIME)

I blame myself
For what you've done
I know I shouldn't
But...

I'm falling more tired everyday
I'm growing weaker every single day
I can't even speak for myself
Not that I would ever try
Cause my eyes are bleeding dry
From the tears spilled from your lies

I've tried everyday
I want to die everyday
Please won't you take my pain away

Take one!
I'm crying all the time.
Take two!
I'm bleeding all the time.
Take three!
I'm dying all the time.

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i like this one too!
especially the verses.

Another Sappy Love Song.

jeal-ous-y
Seems to be my best friend
Yeah I know its wrong
I shouldn't want to be him
When you care about me more

Cause
I'm the one you count on
I'm the one you lean on
I'm the one who will
Wash your tears away

Yet ill never be the one
Who will ever taste your lips again
(My Friend!)
It takes two
to dance this dance
But I'm the only party
Willing to get involved

It just hurts
That I'm wishing to be something more
But all my advances just get shown the door
And you would of thought
I would of given up by now
But your the girl who spins my world.

Ill never be your toy
No,
I would of loved to be
But,
Ill never be your boy
As much as I'd love to be.

And as I have said
Jealousy is my best friend
I just hope
That you will find The perfect guy
For you
Cause I know
You are the perfect girl
To be the world.

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another one i like!
i might just want to tweak it a lil bit.
basically make some lines screamed.
but i will contemplate that.

dead-eye-stare

woke up
Spent a day in hell
Couldn't tell
Who I was or what I've done
Its a matter of the fact
That I've seemed to of erased myself

To much emotion
I need to write it out
To much emotion
I'll need to cut it out

Now I'm so bitter
A change in the weather
And how I feel
And how I deal
Seems to be known by all

It doesn't help
That its painted on my body
By the love inside

Now I'd crawl to you
If you would care
But it doesn't seem that way
With that dead-eye-stare

Well here I am
At my end
But I don't give a fuck about you
And what you have to do

I might be to hard to care about
If so, just go
Its not like your any help,
At All
If so, just go,
Just
Get out of my life
In fact your worse than a knife.

To much emotion
I need to write it out
To much emotion
I'll need to cut it out

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i actually like this one!
yayyy

Overly Dramatic.

All I have to say
Despite thirteen years away
Thinking everythings alright
Now I'm terrified to bite

I'm afraid to love you
I know
This is out of the blue
But I'm afraid to lose you

I know
I have a cowards heart
But I'd rather never be apart
This is all my fault
I wish
I had the courage to love
But I fear we would end in blood

I wish that I could be with you
But I'm to weak to open that door
I wish that I could be with you
But I'm to weak to open that door
I wish that I could be with you
But I'm to weak to open that door

I know
I have a cowards heart
But I'd rather never be apart
This is all my fault
I wish
I had the courage to love
But I fear we would end in blood

I'd rather never be apart
But its just a clever excuse
Because I'm afraid to love you
I'm afraid to love you
Ya I'm afraid to lose you.

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i also dont mind this one.
i'd like it alot more if i could dissociate it with the original topic though.

A Girl

A girl with emotion
Scars up and down her arms
Made from razors and glass
Who believes love will never last...

Things like fuck and hate
Lit up and down her skin
Matched with a wounded heart and mind
Hurt from a life unkind

This is the girl
Who is so perfectly flawed
This is the girl
That ill never leave behind
In this world unkind

Bruised and abused
Its for her
This song is sung
Blood on her wrists
Let me know
Something went amiss

She's the one with,
A broken heart
She's the one with,
A tortured mind
She's the one with,
Scarred skin....

You've made my life
Cause without you...
I'd never be me
And without you
I'd be out of breath
And next to death

She's the one
Ill always love
For...
e-tern-it-y.....

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real lyrics!
i don't really mind this one.
the topic is definitely old
and i could of finished it up better,

Simple Infatuation.

When I see you
My heart smiles
And when I feel you
My skin bristles

Ahhh-ahhh-ah-ah
Ahhh-ahhh-ah-ah

Let me tell you
That I love you
Despite our last date
Despite our heart break

Ill go through helllllll
Ill go through parents
Ill go through anything
Ill go through everything
Because I love you
Because I love you

Yeah!

When I see you
My heart skips
And when I hear you
My ears giggle

Let me tell you
That I love you
Until the end of time
Until the end of time

Let me tell you
That I've always loved you
And always will
I always will.

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dislike also.
to lovey dovey without a point.
and terrible lyrics

Insecure?

I'm sorry
I know
I'm not good enough
I apologize
I've never
Ever been much help

Please
Make room for me
Make room
For me
Make room for
A miserable excuse
At an attempt of love

Ohhhh
I'm sorry, sorry
I want to pick you up
I want to be better
But I'm never good enough
Noooo
Ill never be any help

Ill do my best
Ill try my best
I may not be the best
But ill try unlike the rest

AHHHH
Make room for me
Make room for me
Make room for me
Please please please
Make room for me
There's No one else
No one else
will try like I do
Ill try
I swear ill try
Just let me try
please
Make room for me
Make room for meeeeee

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again i hate this one.
it could be alot better.
and yep. ugh.

nevermind -_-

everyday
Feels like yesterday
Show you just how,
I feel
With a loaded gun
You'll find me
Please find me
Please find me!

Oh I don't
I don't
Want to die
Please
Please save
Meeeee!

AHHHHHHH!
Love is written
on my arms
And a gun to my head
Bullets full and plenty
I think I just might be healthy
Nevermind
Nevermind
Nevermind!

AHHH
I don't want to die
Want to die
IIIIII
Want to die
No more yesterday
No more yesterday
No more yesterday!
Please
Please
Please!

Dooooontt save me...

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i absolutely hate this one.
i was way to much influenced by kurt cobain.
but mixed up with terrible writing and song ideas.

Love and Hate

Hate me
I'm poison
Hate me
I'm frozen
Hate me
I lie
Hate me
Ill die!

Tell me, ill fly
Breaking through a web
I'm dead!
Gasp
Follow me, I'm free
Broken by my past
Wear it like a cast
Bleeding
Ill live!

Ahhhhhhhh
Gasp
My voice is rasp
I HATE THE GRASS
Taking the mast
My life will float
As sinks, my boat

You hate me
I've been poisoned
You hate me
I've been frozen
You hate me
I've been lied to
You hate me
I've died too

And I...
Love you
You've cured me
Love you
You thawed me
Love you
You trust me
Love you
You saved....
Me...

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again.
i dislike this one.
as it was made during my lets make songs that dont really work out.
but i think i can salvage part of this.
let's hope so.

Broken Clover

Come on now
Why we here now
Let's move forward
We've been forewarned

To turn the tables
In our fables
We're on fire
Situation dire!

Take this song apart
You'll find nothing
Say you tried
To die-ie
To die-ie
To die-ie

And now we're poisoned
A broken season
Sign of treason
Liar, liar, LIAR!

Singing useless
Song is pointless
Meaning flurry
I mean Fury!

Where's the pa-ain
Or the sadness
No emotion
Lifes in motion

Not intelligent!
Not from misery!!
Song is over!!!
Broken Clover!!!!

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this song is utterly pointless.
and that was the point of it.
i dislike it now that i see it again.
but i'd like to see what i could do with it.

Forgotten.

I can't be who you want me to be
I can't even see who that is anymore

These shadows, have covered my eyes
No more blue, just black and white
While hiding just underneath, is red

The pain from a misguided visit
Poisoned my soul and tired it out
Now all I see in me
Lacks the fire of life
And true beauty

I can't be who you want me to be
I don't even know who that is anymore

Tip-toeing through the darkness
Trying to find my innocence
And all that I have found
Is a broken mind,
And a broken spine

For all my doom and gloom
From years behind
I've become this empty shell
Cutting my way to hell

I can't be who you want me to be
I don't even know who I am anymore

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post notes.
i dont remember when i wrote this.
and i can't decide if i still like it or not.
it's more or less just about me and how i feel.

Point

so i guess the main point of this blog is too put out what I've written lyrically.
but also for myself to see how i've grown and what i can improve on.